Hello Cardner
It is good to see you reaching out for understanding in your withdrawal. It is understanding that helps us through it.
Withdrawal causes rotten depression for us. It is terrible and I am sorry you are dealing with it. What is happening is that your brain is working to heal and restore itself. It is firing up again to produce the chemcals needed to keep us happy and content. We artificailly did that job for it when we used the opiates. Now it neeRAB to work on its own again. AND IT WILL. Yes, it really will. It just takes time to restore itself. We can help speed the process up with movement. Walks ( even when we don't feel up to it); singing outloud, forcing our face muscles to smile, stuff like this actually helps the brain to restore quicker.
It is depression that makes our thoughts so negative and depression is a liar. Understand that you are making strides to improve your life and health and yet thoughts are lying to you saying all is lost and hopeless. Try to step outside yourself a bit and look at the facts. Understand that depresion lies to us. We are so not helpless or hopeless at all! It is all just a part of the process. Grasp that, then fight back, friend.
My own depression was so deep that I was non-functioning. yet here I stand today happy and well and enjoying life again. There will be this joy again for you also. Take a leap of faith and believe it. Many have gone before you and we are joyous and happy again.
Understand that it begins in baby steps.. a walk accomplished, a smile. Soon real smiles reappear and true laughter comes again. There is nothing but hope ahead of you if you stay the course. That is a fact, a real fact.
With all hope
reach
