I am 25 years old. I had been into 2 painful relationship in the past. My ex was a very aggressive person. I had to go through a lot of mental torture and verbal abuse while being with him. He always made me believe that I am a bad person, selfish and evil. He thought I was rude and uncaring. I have been physically and emotionally abused by him but still I never gave up. I kept trying to be a better person in every way as he made me believe that I was bad. I changed the way I wore clothes, the way i spoke and even the way I thought to some extent. But nothing worked, he couldn't put up with me.
I look like a happy, cheerful person from the outside, but inside I am all sad and disappointed. I believe I also have low self esteem. My biggest fear that leads to my fear of intimacy is that I'm afraid i wont be accepted as how I am. Because of that i mostly remain reserved while talking to other people. I am not much responsive. Been years since i have been trying to overcome this feeling.
Will I ever overcome this? How?
Please Help!
Thanks in advance.
I look like a happy, cheerful person from the outside, but inside I am all sad and disappointed. I believe I also have low self esteem. My biggest fear that leads to my fear of intimacy is that I'm afraid i wont be accepted as how I am. Because of that i mostly remain reserved while talking to other people. I am not much responsive. Been years since i have been trying to overcome this feeling.
Will I ever overcome this? How?
Please Help!
Thanks in advance.