Well, around 3 years ago I started high school. I've known I was gay since 6th grade, and knew I liked guys since 5th (just didn't know there was a name for it...). When I started high school, I noticed how open a couple guys were, and how loved they were by most people. I ended up making friends with two of these guys, and got into a relationship with one of them. Started chatting on the phone with him late at night, mother noticed this on the bill and questioned me about it. I admitted I was talking to a guy, but denied being in a relationship with him. She knew though, so she told me she did not want me around that kind of influence and I was going to be home schooled from that point on. I had a huge fit about it because I was loving high school so much.
I'm now supposed to be a junior. 16 years old, 3 months and I'll be 17. I've realized going back to school is not going to happen, and i'm alright with that. I just want my mother to accept me... She won't even allow me to go to the movies with friends that aren't even male! I have zero freedoms. This hurt our relationship terribly, almost caused me my life a couple times actually, from being so alone. Thanks to amazing friends over the internet, I'm still here. I've realized that would be a very stupid thing to do, as this is my life, I can choose what I want to do as soon as I'm out on my own. If she accepts it, great. If not, oh well, that's her loss... But I would rather her accept me, so I can have relationships! Both friendships possibly a boyfriend ...which brings me to my question.
How would one go about convincing a christian parent that I am who I am, and no matter what she does, how much money she wastes on counselling and my home schooling program (the school alone is $2000 a year, and it does a shit job at teaching me. I have to go to youtube tutors to actually understand most things...) that I will not change. And even if I wanted to change, it would not happen. And how all these stories ex-homosexuals are complete bullshit.
I've tried everything I could think of. Telling her nicely, being extremely blunt about it, straight up telling her I'm doing this and I don't give a flying f*ck what you say about it... She never gives in. More stubborn and closed minded than a mule...
I want to be her best friend again, I miss that relationship, but until this is resolved, it's just not going to work out like that. Too much resentment...
Any advice for me?
I'm now supposed to be a junior. 16 years old, 3 months and I'll be 17. I've realized going back to school is not going to happen, and i'm alright with that. I just want my mother to accept me... She won't even allow me to go to the movies with friends that aren't even male! I have zero freedoms. This hurt our relationship terribly, almost caused me my life a couple times actually, from being so alone. Thanks to amazing friends over the internet, I'm still here. I've realized that would be a very stupid thing to do, as this is my life, I can choose what I want to do as soon as I'm out on my own. If she accepts it, great. If not, oh well, that's her loss... But I would rather her accept me, so I can have relationships! Both friendships possibly a boyfriend ...which brings me to my question.
How would one go about convincing a christian parent that I am who I am, and no matter what she does, how much money she wastes on counselling and my home schooling program (the school alone is $2000 a year, and it does a shit job at teaching me. I have to go to youtube tutors to actually understand most things...) that I will not change. And even if I wanted to change, it would not happen. And how all these stories ex-homosexuals are complete bullshit.
I've tried everything I could think of. Telling her nicely, being extremely blunt about it, straight up telling her I'm doing this and I don't give a flying f*ck what you say about it... She never gives in. More stubborn and closed minded than a mule...
I want to be her best friend again, I miss that relationship, but until this is resolved, it's just not going to work out like that. Too much resentment...
Any advice for me?