I don't even know where to start. I'm just having a hard time with the thoughts in my head about this specific situation. It's not someone that I would ever want to be with, nor could I be with him, or anything.. it just has to do basically with his anatomy.
I have only been with one man in my life, and so this all came as a surprise to me. But this person is um.. very, very well endowed. To the point that like, I don't even know if anything would be possible in the first place because it seems to me like there is a thing as too big. But even so, I have physical reactions to the fact, and it keeps entering my thoughts even though I try so hard not to let it. I even fantasize about it being different guys, but them being this size.
I just don't know how to forget about it because we are in the same house, and it's not like I can just get away. And also, I feel like I'm terrible or not normal for having these reactions. Why can it be attractive to me when it seems like it would be too big, and when it's on someone I have no desire for?
I have only been with one man in my life, and so this all came as a surprise to me. But this person is um.. very, very well endowed. To the point that like, I don't even know if anything would be possible in the first place because it seems to me like there is a thing as too big. But even so, I have physical reactions to the fact, and it keeps entering my thoughts even though I try so hard not to let it. I even fantasize about it being different guys, but them being this size.
I just don't know how to forget about it because we are in the same house, and it's not like I can just get away. And also, I feel like I'm terrible or not normal for having these reactions. Why can it be attractive to me when it seems like it would be too big, and when it's on someone I have no desire for?