Bottom line, I have been living in the same place pretty much all my life. I have been doing the same routines in the same "middle of no-where" town for so many years that my entire life has lost all meaning for me. I recently got back from holiday abroad and that was the first time in *years* that I've even felt truly human.
Everyday since then the thought has obsessively been running through my head that I want to work my way back out of the country. Right now I just want to break away from this place and my boss of three years before I do something incredibly stupid. Which goes along the lines of "kill me"
I have a relative that's always been quite reliant on me and another who I have a very strong bond with. I know that both can manage fine without me but how do I break it to them exactly how badly I need this escape and how soon I will be putting these plans into action.
(Hopefully within a week or two) neither will be inclined to take it seriously and if they do take it seriously then neither will be happy or encouraging about my leaving. I want to leave on good terms with them.
Everyday since then the thought has obsessively been running through my head that I want to work my way back out of the country. Right now I just want to break away from this place and my boss of three years before I do something incredibly stupid. Which goes along the lines of "kill me"
I have a relative that's always been quite reliant on me and another who I have a very strong bond with. I know that both can manage fine without me but how do I break it to them exactly how badly I need this escape and how soon I will be putting these plans into action.
(Hopefully within a week or two) neither will be inclined to take it seriously and if they do take it seriously then neither will be happy or encouraging about my leaving. I want to leave on good terms with them.