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About 2 weeks prior to June 6th..I was really depressed since one of my best friends committed suicide due to the fact that she wa sbullied in school. I was her only friend, yet, we got into a fight the day she committed suicide...I don't know what the fight was but looking back at it, it's hard to deal with..After wards I just stopped caring about school, thus the reason why I failed math...She was one of my best friends for whom I knew since about for a year before she told me about how suicidal she was...When she left this Earth, within the last 2 weeks, I tried to kill myself but I never could because I couldn't leave these people (my family) behind...I tried cutting myself but that didn't solve anything...I never knew she was going to do it. One day my friend invited me to a party, it wasn't a house party it was one at a park, I've never been to that park before so I had no clue where I was but I knew which bus I needed to take to get to
STC which I could just go home from there....Anyway, during that lil party I was so depressed...I couldn't do anything.
To my friends and family, I just acted like everything was okay. Actually, I was okay, I didn't cry when my friend died
and I don't know why..All of a sudden I can't keep my act together. Anyway, during the party, I was too depressed to do
anything. That was when I saw a table of cups, it was beer it was only for the adults, but I drank it anyway, it
was only 2 cups or so because I couldn't find anything that could make me forget about my friend's death, so I tried
one. The first one was okay, I just sat down and thought for a few minutes, then afterwards, about 30 mins later
I drank another one but a few minutes after I felt dizzy and got these pounding headaches and just fell...Not
many people were there so I just remember passing out on the floor and what not...When I woke up, it was a lil
bit darker and then I noticed that my fly was unzipped...I zipped it up, because I thought nhothing of it cause
the pants were broken anyway...And just decided to go home..So I took the bus home and just lied down and cried
for a while, I cried because I remembered my friend...and the nicknames she called me and I called her...Anyway,
the next day, everything was back to normal, I didn't tell my mom because I all of a sudden felt better about
everything and I slowly got over my friend's death...I was waiting for my period, all of a sudden a few days
later, I started to get headaches and dizziness and i've been feeling really tired...I googled these to see
what was going on, and apparently it was linked to a sign of pregnancy...then on the 11th of june, I skipped my period
which I thought was wierd, so I decided to wait another month, then all of a sudden it's now Aug, and I haven't
had any bleeding ever since, and I'm just scared I might be pregnant...
I want to tell my mom tomorrow, when she comes from work, but I'm only 15, and I'm scared of her reaction,
she might hit me for doing drugs, and she'll be so disappointed me that it hurts..But I don't know, I don't want
to go to school like this, please help...I never meant to drink those beers but I alcohol was my only way out of depression ... please help..
STC which I could just go home from there....Anyway, during that lil party I was so depressed...I couldn't do anything.
To my friends and family, I just acted like everything was okay. Actually, I was okay, I didn't cry when my friend died
and I don't know why..All of a sudden I can't keep my act together. Anyway, during the party, I was too depressed to do
anything. That was when I saw a table of cups, it was beer it was only for the adults, but I drank it anyway, it
was only 2 cups or so because I couldn't find anything that could make me forget about my friend's death, so I tried
one. The first one was okay, I just sat down and thought for a few minutes, then afterwards, about 30 mins later
I drank another one but a few minutes after I felt dizzy and got these pounding headaches and just fell...Not
many people were there so I just remember passing out on the floor and what not...When I woke up, it was a lil
bit darker and then I noticed that my fly was unzipped...I zipped it up, because I thought nhothing of it cause
the pants were broken anyway...And just decided to go home..So I took the bus home and just lied down and cried
for a while, I cried because I remembered my friend...and the nicknames she called me and I called her...Anyway,
the next day, everything was back to normal, I didn't tell my mom because I all of a sudden felt better about
everything and I slowly got over my friend's death...I was waiting for my period, all of a sudden a few days
later, I started to get headaches and dizziness and i've been feeling really tired...I googled these to see
what was going on, and apparently it was linked to a sign of pregnancy...then on the 11th of june, I skipped my period
which I thought was wierd, so I decided to wait another month, then all of a sudden it's now Aug, and I haven't
had any bleeding ever since, and I'm just scared I might be pregnant...
I want to tell my mom tomorrow, when she comes from work, but I'm only 15, and I'm scared of her reaction,
she might hit me for doing drugs, and she'll be so disappointed me that it hurts..But I don't know, I don't want
to go to school like this, please help...I never meant to drink those beers but I alcohol was my only way out of depression ... please help..