I'm thinking of going into treatment for my anorexia, but I'm scared. I know I can't handle it on my own so I'll probably have to be admitted to a clinic. My biggest fear is that they will tell me I have to gain 50 pounds or something or they won't let me out. I'm 5'6" and I currently weigh 88lbs. The highest weight I ever reached was 112 lbs and I didn't even have an eating disorder back then (I was 16, now I'm 20). What if they say I have to go up to 120lbs or something before they will let me out?! Looking at pics of myself at 112lbs makes me wanna cry, I look monstrous. What's your experience?