Heh there my name is Iain i live in Glasgow Scotland.
I hear your pain, i really do, my only opinion and it is only my opinion is that it may not seem like the lesser evil but i`m sure it`ll be the lesser of two evils.
I also hear what your saying about coming off everything before but this, the hardest part isn`t coming off it it`s staying off it.
I stopped myself on more than one occasion but always reverted back to my old ways, basically because i never dealt with what was going on in my
chitty chitty bang bang (my head) Try to keep in mind the chaos using created in your life and the torment it caused you, i don`t know because i don`t really know how your life was affected, all i know is how my life was affected. A train crash does`nt even begin to describe my life between the age of 21yrs and 33yrs. Why not try and detox slowly because believe me life does get better and the pain will ease and eventually go completely. I`ve probably been no help atoll apart from letting you know that someone out there is listening all be it thousanRAB of miles away you`re never along. Dig your heels in and fight because the end result is worth fighting for.
A wee saying that i kept in mind during my own detox is " NO MATTER WHAT THE WEATHERS LIKE OUTSIDE (usually rain in Scotland) IT MAY BE RAINING, IT MAY BE SNOWING, IT CAN ALSO BE NIGHT TIME, NO MATTER WHAT THE SUN WILL ALWAYS BE UP THERE SHINING" Stay positive and keep the faith (in yourself) Again i don`t know you but recovery is out there waiting for us all to erabrace it :wave: