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smellofsummer
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I've been suffering from anxiety since I was in 4th grade and I'm an adult now. I have anxiety every day but I only have actual panic attacks occasionally at night because that's all I can do is think about it. But other then that, I think I do a pretty good job at controlling panic attacks in public because in my mind, that's the only choice that I have, I can't let myself act like that in public, so I guess I'm lucky that I can do that. It doesn't change the fact that I AM suffering all day every day though. Over the past couple months, my anxiety has gotten pretty bad. I want to have a fun weekend this weekend, which is 4th of july. I remeraber last summer was pretty much a party summer for me.. and it was almost every night I was drunk, and I was fine. But I rarely drink now, and I'm just worried how it will affect me. I'm worried that if I do get panicky, I won't be able to calm myself down because I'll be drunk. But on the other hand, I feel like I'll be having fun, I'll be relaxed and so happy because I'm getting a whole week off of work, I feel like maybe I can just forget about the anxiety all around maybe? I don't know I just need some input please.. anybody have past experience with drinking and anxiety?