How do you spend your days?

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My anxiety/depression is getting worse by the day, I'm now not even working anymore and basically never leave my room unless necessary. I avoid everyone and have nowhere to go. I'm extremely lonely and becoming less in touch with reality. I spend my days and nights in bed, online watching tv or reading forums and hoping to find frienRAB. I'm 24 and hate being this way.

Is anyone else in this situation?
 
I'm somewhat isolated also, I don't really like going out to pubs/clubs, I get anxious around new people, most of my frienRAB live 3hrs away in the city, so I spend most of my time at home by my self on the net, playing vid games and watchin tv.

It's definitely not healthy, so I try to do things that make me feel useful. I make sure my house is clean almost every day, I write game reviews, and force myself to just go for a walk down the main street to ensure I'm out of my comfort zone and don't get too cut off from society. I used to do some volunteer work also, I should get back into it.

I find it very easy to get into the bad pattern of getting up at 1pm, playing games all day, staying up half the night doign nothing, so I try to maintain a good sleep order and structure in my life.

Guess you just have to take small steps to keep yourself busy and intune with the outside world, only thing that makes anxiety worse is letting it control you life, so I make sure I have human contact each day, even if it's just paying bills etc - it atleast stops me from getting any worse while I work with my psychologist to get better :)
 
Hi there,

It sounRAB like you are suffering from a major depression. I've had a few bouts of it and I know what you are going through. Have you been to the doctor? On any medication? Had blood work done? If not, please see your doctor. You are way too young to spend your days in bed. You need to pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Get a job. It's too easy to lay in bed and dwell on your depression if you are not required to be somewhere on a regular basis. It's summertime. Get outside and bask in the sunshine. Helps warm the heart for me.

I hope you find something that helps soon. I do know how you feel and am glad I saw a shrink that put me on the right med cocktail. Earlier this year, I prayed for death. Now I can laugh again. Don't give up hope.

Best wishes,

JB
 
sorry to hear you are suffering so much but please know you are not alone-
i spend my days totally controlled by my rituals and my anxiety- every day is exactly the same minute by minute hour by hour day by day week by week and my sadness and despair is only getting worse- i still work 2 jobs though getting ready for work- driving to work and walking into work causes MAJOR panic attacks though once i get to work i am normal- functioning at a high level and doing my job without any problems- people think i'm funny- a great person to be around and with a loving giving heart but that is my work persona- that is NOT me- i do not like people and i am faking every hour at work i am only there for the paycheck and the health insurance- i would rather be home even though at home i am controlled by my anxiety and panic but at least it's my anxiety and panic- i am a lost cause and hope you find a way out as i have totally given up-
 
By staying in your room and not going out or working, you're letting the anxiety win. Sometimes it's the hardest thing in the world but you have to force yourself to get out and do things you used to do. I know how you feel. Just remeraber you're not alone, plenty of people go through anxiety/depression. See a doctor they will help you.
 
Yeah I'm in the same boat: jobless and slacking, at 31. Becoming a hermit. I hate going to places where there are large crowRAB and I fear becoming too agoraphobic to function, but I get to the grocery store, etc. I just miss concerts, fairs, festivals, because I used to have no problem going these places and now just....can't. If I go I flip out right past the point of no return, when it would be rude to leave or let frienRAB down. I just feel so trapped if I feel I can't leave a venue the minute I want to. Which is logistically unfeasible at concerts where throngs of people have to all pass through a couple of exits. Panic attack city.
 
I force myself not to cry and especially not to ignore or abandon my partner. I've realised I'm not a freak so at 28, I'm finally getting help for this. My first therapy session is tomorrow morning and I'm so scared.

Mine anxiety is somewhat smaller than your own, but I have stopped going to festivals and race days and whatnot. I thought I was not going for a different reason, but hearing you say it, I realise I haven't gone because of the actual situation. The last time I went to BDO we were waiting for my favourite band to play. Suddenyl my breathing became heavy, I got dizzy and started hyperventilating. Just wanted to get out of there. My boyfriend thankfully noticed something was up and got me out of the crowd, but that was it. The rest of the day I spent sitting in the shade and feeling like I just wanted to sink into the Earth.

I have no sick days left at work. I've used them up on the days were I cant stop crying and dont get out of bed. God I hate those days.

I wish I could live my life. I have a disabled brother who can barely function physically, and perfectly healthy and loveable best mate who died last year... and here I am sulking and laying in bed. Even thinking this, I still cant get the negative thoughts out of my head.

For the rest of us, PLEASE, get out of bed. Feel the sun. Start a garden!
 
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