I was so into her. Clearly I'm still into her, though not at that infatuation level I was at a few months ago...I know she was into me at some point.But i'm not sure she's ever been into a girl before or if she's willing to go that direction. We almost got there. The date didn't end up happening.She had begun seeing a guy,and while still seemingly really into me, got engaged to him after a few months together. It was rushed; it was careless...
I haven't spoken to her in months. There's still tension between us.It's like there needs to be some sort of closure. I think she wasn't done with the idea of me,but I had begun ignoring her (couldn't help it - things hadnt worked out with the date and I felt awkward) She seemed to have wanted to talk with me - would frequently try to get my eye contact, would often stand and stare, come hangout in my area and try to get my eye...and I ignored it, not looking at her once.I wave at her when passing every now and then and she often looks happy,sometimes looks giddy and waves back quickly. I'm not kidding, when I smiled at her a little while back and mouthed "hey" while passing she took on a childish smile and mouthed the same back.
But in most other circumstances, she now looks angry and/or is unapproachable when in my area. She looks like she decided to move on from me a while ago, but like there's still something bitter there.Because of this,it is so difficult for me to just go up and talk to her like nothing's up. It's so diffcult when I've practically ignored her for so long (several! months) to just go up and say "hey, what's going on?" I imagine getting blown off.
The last I saw her, I caught her looking over at me several times...she hadn't done this for a while. She watched me A LOT in the past, and slowly stopped doing that. I'm feeling like talking to her again because I fear she's going to leave for good in a while. I at least want some closure. I'd like to become friends with her. I realize she's engaged and getting married - which does hurt- but I know I'm not ready to marry now and I cannot picture being engaged to her or anything. So I'm not going to try to end it
I haven't spoken to her in months. There's still tension between us.It's like there needs to be some sort of closure. I think she wasn't done with the idea of me,but I had begun ignoring her (couldn't help it - things hadnt worked out with the date and I felt awkward) She seemed to have wanted to talk with me - would frequently try to get my eye contact, would often stand and stare, come hangout in my area and try to get my eye...and I ignored it, not looking at her once.I wave at her when passing every now and then and she often looks happy,sometimes looks giddy and waves back quickly. I'm not kidding, when I smiled at her a little while back and mouthed "hey" while passing she took on a childish smile and mouthed the same back.
But in most other circumstances, she now looks angry and/or is unapproachable when in my area. She looks like she decided to move on from me a while ago, but like there's still something bitter there.Because of this,it is so difficult for me to just go up and talk to her like nothing's up. It's so diffcult when I've practically ignored her for so long (several! months) to just go up and say "hey, what's going on?" I imagine getting blown off.
The last I saw her, I caught her looking over at me several times...she hadn't done this for a while. She watched me A LOT in the past, and slowly stopped doing that. I'm feeling like talking to her again because I fear she's going to leave for good in a while. I at least want some closure. I'd like to become friends with her. I realize she's engaged and getting married - which does hurt- but I know I'm not ready to marry now and I cannot picture being engaged to her or anything. So I'm not going to try to end it