I recently had an extreme rage tick, and I don't want it to happen again because I ended up with a broken hand.
I bottled anger up extremely deep inside of myself because of many reasons,
teachers picking on me, looking at my phone when it's against the law of privacy (it happened to me twice and I was extremely pissed)
getting kicked off activities, sports, and suspended for very unreasonable excuses.
the reason I got angry was because of how unfair I thought it was.
all the bottling up came from unfairness and how I was unable to do anything about it because they had the authority not me.
so after two weeks of bottling this anger up I couldn't take it anymore and ran into the washroom, not to cry.
But to start pounding on the wall (i do kickboxing so I know how to strike hard) as hard as I can.
The wall was hard and with tiles, I did it for at least 30 seconds straight then I started kicking the wall, doors, and everything.
before that I felt my heart raising, everything getting brighter, adrenaline pumping, alot of energy on it's way to me, anger lots of it, sweat, muscles tensing, fists clenching
I got extremely violent and loud, I was hyperventilating, and I was also most noticeably shaking my head, arms, hands, feet, legs my whole body was. I was also yelling and shouting knowing people could hear me but I didn't care because I needed to let anger out.
what I was shouting was I can't take it anymore, (the bull sh*t I was going through)
then in the end I was on the floor still moving my legs trying to get all the energy out and I felt tears overcome me, I was in the crying state but not in the kind where someone hits an intervention and feelings pour out, I was just crying because of the extreme anger and the sudden release of anger.
the results were :
nosebleed
2 broken fingers and 3 broken knuckles
broken wrist
and a sprained ankle
and to be honest, I wouldn't even remember half of what happened, it happened so fast.
I couldn't remember where I punched and how I even got to that state, my friends who came in and helped told me the rest of what I didn't know
To be honest this was the most angry state I've ever been in and I really want to know how to control this because I don't want this to happen with someone present, which was why I ran into the washroom.
my stats :
I'm 14, 5'10, and work out(so I know my hormones and manifest into anger and adrenaline extremely fast)
if it's any help I weight 160lbs
my teacher DID give me a few good techniques but when it comes to the real situation I can't control it.
I want to know how to control the anger not what causes it.
I bottled anger up extremely deep inside of myself because of many reasons,
teachers picking on me, looking at my phone when it's against the law of privacy (it happened to me twice and I was extremely pissed)
getting kicked off activities, sports, and suspended for very unreasonable excuses.
the reason I got angry was because of how unfair I thought it was.
all the bottling up came from unfairness and how I was unable to do anything about it because they had the authority not me.
so after two weeks of bottling this anger up I couldn't take it anymore and ran into the washroom, not to cry.
But to start pounding on the wall (i do kickboxing so I know how to strike hard) as hard as I can.
The wall was hard and with tiles, I did it for at least 30 seconds straight then I started kicking the wall, doors, and everything.
before that I felt my heart raising, everything getting brighter, adrenaline pumping, alot of energy on it's way to me, anger lots of it, sweat, muscles tensing, fists clenching
I got extremely violent and loud, I was hyperventilating, and I was also most noticeably shaking my head, arms, hands, feet, legs my whole body was. I was also yelling and shouting knowing people could hear me but I didn't care because I needed to let anger out.
what I was shouting was I can't take it anymore, (the bull sh*t I was going through)
then in the end I was on the floor still moving my legs trying to get all the energy out and I felt tears overcome me, I was in the crying state but not in the kind where someone hits an intervention and feelings pour out, I was just crying because of the extreme anger and the sudden release of anger.
the results were :
nosebleed
2 broken fingers and 3 broken knuckles
broken wrist
and a sprained ankle
and to be honest, I wouldn't even remember half of what happened, it happened so fast.
I couldn't remember where I punched and how I even got to that state, my friends who came in and helped told me the rest of what I didn't know
To be honest this was the most angry state I've ever been in and I really want to know how to control this because I don't want this to happen with someone present, which was why I ran into the washroom.
my stats :
I'm 14, 5'10, and work out(so I know my hormones and manifest into anger and adrenaline extremely fast)
if it's any help I weight 160lbs
my teacher DID give me a few good techniques but when it comes to the real situation I can't control it.
I want to know how to control the anger not what causes it.