How do I not i care about anything?

[john ster]

alright this chick I loved liked me for a while but I never tried to hook up with her and no about a year later I want her but I decide to express it but I think I expressed to much an now she doesn't feel the same way about me but she was real nice about it and I hate that because I can't even be mad at her cuz she's to sweet and I usually don't give SHIT about ANYTHING and girls like me but I never pay them any attention and now the one girl I want doesn't want me and now I'm really depressed so now I want to know how to forget about these emotions and not care about stuff like how I used to be