You can't have a relationship without trust right? So obviously love isn't enough to get two people through.
I've been in my relationship for a year and a half and 3 months in he cheated on me, lied, lied and lied. It was quite extreme what he did but what hurt me even more is I date back times in my head and figure out when he was seeing her then pretending to me everything was fine and he never even seemed to act guilty whilst he was sleeping with another person.
I'd already fallen head over heels by the time I found out and after a lot of thinking, tears and I had depression for quite a while causing me to almost fail my college which would of stopped me going uni, but I got through. We decided he was going to change, he did the whole 'I love you' talk and I gave it another go which wasn't like me but I felt so attached and trapped I had no way to turn him down.
So ever since then I've never really got over it, we where brilliant together, I mean brilliant. He'd help me out with money, my horse, uni stuff, and I'd help him out with his job, family troubles and any issues we ever had. Most of the time we would just laugh about and be so loved up it felt perfect but I'd always remind myself with images and thoughts of the past. Plus he never really stopped. He never cheated again but he'd have the odd flirt behind my back and lie to me about it.
So just yesterday it hit me I was never going to trust him, never going to get over his past and my paranoia, jealousy and all these flaws I never had till then where ruining me.
I decided to talk to him and end it, i've not stopped crying and his saying all the right words to try and get me to forgive him, but I need to put my foot down as I can't see myself ever getting engaged or settling down with him knowing what he did. Also he was pretty much my first love whilst I had to deal with the fact he;'d slept with around 22 girls, (probably more) from his lies.
Or is someone going to tell me people with a split personality, two faces can change? I don't believe it anymore, ive tried time and time again. So what do I do to get out of the habit of wanting to text him all the time like we used to, seeing him all the time and ringing him whenever I need a friend to talk to. I don't want my depression to come back.
Lastly, i've done the whole keeping myself busy, seeing friends and i've got hobby's and interests so don't advice anything like that. But thanks for any help anyone can give.
I've been in my relationship for a year and a half and 3 months in he cheated on me, lied, lied and lied. It was quite extreme what he did but what hurt me even more is I date back times in my head and figure out when he was seeing her then pretending to me everything was fine and he never even seemed to act guilty whilst he was sleeping with another person.
I'd already fallen head over heels by the time I found out and after a lot of thinking, tears and I had depression for quite a while causing me to almost fail my college which would of stopped me going uni, but I got through. We decided he was going to change, he did the whole 'I love you' talk and I gave it another go which wasn't like me but I felt so attached and trapped I had no way to turn him down.
So ever since then I've never really got over it, we where brilliant together, I mean brilliant. He'd help me out with money, my horse, uni stuff, and I'd help him out with his job, family troubles and any issues we ever had. Most of the time we would just laugh about and be so loved up it felt perfect but I'd always remind myself with images and thoughts of the past. Plus he never really stopped. He never cheated again but he'd have the odd flirt behind my back and lie to me about it.
So just yesterday it hit me I was never going to trust him, never going to get over his past and my paranoia, jealousy and all these flaws I never had till then where ruining me.
I decided to talk to him and end it, i've not stopped crying and his saying all the right words to try and get me to forgive him, but I need to put my foot down as I can't see myself ever getting engaged or settling down with him knowing what he did. Also he was pretty much my first love whilst I had to deal with the fact he;'d slept with around 22 girls, (probably more) from his lies.
Or is someone going to tell me people with a split personality, two faces can change? I don't believe it anymore, ive tried time and time again. So what do I do to get out of the habit of wanting to text him all the time like we used to, seeing him all the time and ringing him whenever I need a friend to talk to. I don't want my depression to come back.
Lastly, i've done the whole keeping myself busy, seeing friends and i've got hobby's and interests so don't advice anything like that. But thanks for any help anyone can give.