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Hi,
I'm 16 and I think I may be sick. I've been dieting this way for 5 years now, and I feel that I have lost sight of what it actually is to be 'normal'. I'll put this in a nut-shell; I eat 2-3 full meals per week, however one of which I physically cannot finish. Subsequently I feel intense guilt for eating and don't eat until my parents catch me. I don't eat to reduce my weight though, I don't eat because my body doesn't tell me I need it. I don't eat because I hate the way I feel when I do. In a way you could almost cause eating to be phobia of mine, however dramatic that sounds.
Perhaps this question highlights my desperation. I don't what is 'normal'. I don't know whether or not I'm over or under eating when I eat because I don't know what to do. As primitive as eating may be. My parents have placed me in hospitals designed to treat girls' with "disorders" such as I feel I may have. Subsequently, that has placed the idea that this might not be normal into my head. I'm completly confused and I just need some guidence. Am I doing right? What's wrong with me?
I'm 16 and I think I may be sick. I've been dieting this way for 5 years now, and I feel that I have lost sight of what it actually is to be 'normal'. I'll put this in a nut-shell; I eat 2-3 full meals per week, however one of which I physically cannot finish. Subsequently I feel intense guilt for eating and don't eat until my parents catch me. I don't eat to reduce my weight though, I don't eat because my body doesn't tell me I need it. I don't eat because I hate the way I feel when I do. In a way you could almost cause eating to be phobia of mine, however dramatic that sounds.
Perhaps this question highlights my desperation. I don't what is 'normal'. I don't know whether or not I'm over or under eating when I eat because I don't know what to do. As primitive as eating may be. My parents have placed me in hospitals designed to treat girls' with "disorders" such as I feel I may have. Subsequently, that has placed the idea that this might not be normal into my head. I'm completly confused and I just need some guidence. Am I doing right? What's wrong with me?