So I've had this thing for a guy for over 3 years now, and now it is time to move on because he is a heartless prick and has completely ripped me apart these past couple weeks, yet keeps calling me a drama queen because he's ticking me off in every way possible. I know eventually everything will die down, but right now I'm so over it and I need to move on. BUT-
My problem is that I keep taking steps backward and imagine him with a new girl and treating her absolutely amazingly, and I get a huge wave of jealousy. Second, I fell in love with him and always wanted him to be my first (as in to take my virginity), and he was seriously the only one that I felt ready for and the only person I wanted to even share that with - the other guys I was with in the past just didn't satisfy me and I was not as into it (I am 20 by the way). Third, I am afraid I'll never find someone I want to share that with and will even remotely live up to the feelings I had for this guy.
As much as people keep telling me that there are plenty of other fish in the sea, it is REALLY hard to get into that mind set at the moment when for 3 years you did not find one person who you felt that strongly about.
I need to get over him though! HOW?
My problem is that I keep taking steps backward and imagine him with a new girl and treating her absolutely amazingly, and I get a huge wave of jealousy. Second, I fell in love with him and always wanted him to be my first (as in to take my virginity), and he was seriously the only one that I felt ready for and the only person I wanted to even share that with - the other guys I was with in the past just didn't satisfy me and I was not as into it (I am 20 by the way). Third, I am afraid I'll never find someone I want to share that with and will even remotely live up to the feelings I had for this guy.
As much as people keep telling me that there are plenty of other fish in the sea, it is REALLY hard to get into that mind set at the moment when for 3 years you did not find one person who you felt that strongly about.
I need to get over him though! HOW?