I guess I'm at a point now in life where there's anxiety about everything and crap you don't care to hear about...I'll keep it short. I'm pretty miserable and I feel unbelievably hopeless at times, especially late at night. I am used to putting on a mask so nobody really knows me. Although I don't know me either. Not saying I'm suicidal, because in the past, I've done things that have made me realize just how much it takes to get to that point. For several months now I've just been abusing diphenhydramine. It's an otc drug found in benedryl. It makes me even more deppressed and I've hallucinated once or twice. I'm talking actual hallucinations, not just distortion traces i get all the time. I don't feel I can stop. I honestly hope a lot of times that I just won't wake up after i eventually pass out. that's wishful thinking though with this drug.
how long can i keep this up until i develop some heart problem and die?
yea about seeing a doctor, i know it's probably best for me, but right now, i think it would be just another thing to worry about for my parents...i'll be in college soon so im thinking of hopefully being able to go to one on my own with no one knowing of my problems
how long can i keep this up until i develop some heart problem and die?
yea about seeing a doctor, i know it's probably best for me, but right now, i think it would be just another thing to worry about for my parents...i'll be in college soon so im thinking of hopefully being able to go to one on my own with no one knowing of my problems