turqoisemum
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...words that he trully loves me? I've known my boyfriend for 3 years now. He lives in Dubai & I stay in Malaysia but he makes it a point to come to Malaysia to see me whenever time allows sometimes stay for 3 months & paid for my ticket to see him Dubai. He loves me very much and wants to marry me but the problem with my divorce procedure leave us with no choice but wait. He calls me everyday and keeps saying he trully loves me and wants to marry me and will wait no matter how long the procedure takes and he does. He lives with no sex live in Dubai until he gets a chance to see me, sometimes he makes an effort to see me for few days in Singapore or we go to Bangkok. His driver and his office mate told me how kind he is, his life is all about books, musics and work. no women no late night outs but despite that I still can't get over his sexual encounters with his past girlfriend especially when he once stayed for 4 months with her while I can just see him few times in few months. He always comfort me and says he has forgotten the past and only loves me and wants to marry me. But everytime I tried to forget his past, the imagination of him making love to his ex keeps coming back and it's very painful and I suffered so much now. I love him very much but I can't forget his past and keep wishing I had a past like him too. For information, I was very concern about sex in the past and eventhough I studied in UK I never had any sexual relationship with a man and now I regret it. I make his suffer too everytime I said I can't go on because of his past and he once cried over the phone one entire day when I called thinking he was losing me. Please help me, what should I do, I'm suffering so much now and I make him suffer when I know he Loves me very much and I am loving him very much too.