m_alvarez_fresno
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I am Gay and have been keeping it a secret my whole life. I want to let my closest friends and family know but I don't know how they will react. My family, including relatives is very homophobic and my own dad thinks that homosexuality is a choice. I know for a fact that at least for myself, it wasn't a choice and I was born like this for some reason. The stress and anxiety that this has caused me over the years is overwhelmingly working against my health and I just want to come clean. I just don't know how to do it. I am pretty sure that my family suspects that I am gay but they way they make comments leads me to think that they will not like me anymore. My dad called me a ****** when I was 16 cause I did not want to play basketball but that was more because i was depressed at that time. A few days ago my grandpa told me "I know u like it in the ***" and it just pissed me off. 2 weeks ago my cousin told me he is hearing rumors that i'm gay and I asked him who is saying this and he jus laughed it off...but he is just 15 years old and one of my closest cousins. He says he looks up to me and I make him laugh but still....idk how he'll take it. A friend the other day sent me a text saying "hey I heard your bi" and saying that people are telling him this. IDK how's this is all happening so suddenly but I am just tired of it all and ready to let it out. I might even be bi because I do like girls sexually but am leaning more towards guys so it's kinda weird. So just wna know ur experiences and how you think I should go about this. I know everyone going to think differently of me and i'll lose a lot of people in my life but it's for the better I guess.
I am 23 and currently going to school to obtain my AS degree in Computer and Information Systems. I also, want to be a police officer...so I am enrolled in a police academy for august of this year. Right now I just volunteer and focus on school and try to hang out with friends and family that are cool. I don't live with my dad.
I am 23 and currently going to school to obtain my AS degree in Computer and Information Systems. I also, want to be a police officer...so I am enrolled in a police academy for august of this year. Right now I just volunteer and focus on school and try to hang out with friends and family that are cool. I don't live with my dad.