Me and my best friend are so close and openly talk about relationships and sex, we also check out girls and guys together but i dont know how she is. I am bisexual but never told anyone, and now i am secretly crushing on my friend and when we are apart or dont see each other for a couple of days i feel empty, she is a virgin and her last kiss with a guy was a couple of years ago that didnt last long, but i am not and she always asks me how does it feel etc., basically she is curious, but for the past week she kept sayin how she has an inner feeling that shell never get married and die a virgin (but i dont know if shes joking or not, i always comfort her with a joke when she says that). shes really into this guy now and theyve gone out twice but now she says she doesnt want him anymore as he havent talked to her in a while. we also share a bed many times and when i used to get cudly with her she used to resist it, so i stopped, and now that i dont, i feel like she secretly wants me to wrap my arm around her. i have also tried to kiss her lips in pics "as a joke", only with our close friends, but its always the side of her lips. i dont know how to open the topic with her that i am bisexual and that i have a crush on her and i am dying to kiss her. i also told her about my dream once that she came to me and told me shes scared to kiss the guy shes crushing on coz she doesnt know how and i told her i can teach her and we kissed, and it was a nice dream with a soft kiss, and i told her about it the next day, i think she got a little awkward at first but when we looked up the meaning of dreams and found out it isnt neccessarily sexual, she was fine with it, but yesterday we were sitting together talking about the guy and she said it outloud that she really does feel inexperienced and she just wants to kiss but she doesnt really know how. when i see her again should i remind her of the dream and what she said and ask to kiss her?
im scared to ruin our friendship
im scared to ruin our friendship