I am a 15 year old boy who is at a crossroads in life. Since 11 I have been dressing as a girl and over the years I have given into submission. What started out as small has grown. I am seeing myself transform into a girl. I can feel my masculinity slipping away...
I am a boy but at present I have many dresses, skirts, blouses and lots of pairs of shoes. I have an overflowing makeup box and 3 wigs. Ever day I wear pink lingerie to school and I have to hide all my things from the rest of my family. I am becoming very effeminate in my actions and my body is smooth, I have pierced ears and do my nails. To school I wear a little foundation and mascara but not to many people notice. My hair is kept in a, short, blonde ponytail.
I feel I have to do this, act like and girl and look like a girl. I go a day or two without tending myself like a girl and then I am frustrated and arch my eyebrows and put on makeup and tidy my hair. My girlfriend recently dumped after she found all my gay porn and now I am dating, secretly, a boy.
I don't want this to go on, but I can't stop being and looking like a girl, I have to do it... Is there any help on how I can save my masculinity or do I accept my feminine side?
I am a boy but at present I have many dresses, skirts, blouses and lots of pairs of shoes. I have an overflowing makeup box and 3 wigs. Ever day I wear pink lingerie to school and I have to hide all my things from the rest of my family. I am becoming very effeminate in my actions and my body is smooth, I have pierced ears and do my nails. To school I wear a little foundation and mascara but not to many people notice. My hair is kept in a, short, blonde ponytail.
I feel I have to do this, act like and girl and look like a girl. I go a day or two without tending myself like a girl and then I am frustrated and arch my eyebrows and put on makeup and tidy my hair. My girlfriend recently dumped after she found all my gay porn and now I am dating, secretly, a boy.
I don't want this to go on, but I can't stop being and looking like a girl, I have to do it... Is there any help on how I can save my masculinity or do I accept my feminine side?