I guess im self diagnosed feeling like this for 2 years but I try and not think about it and its only making it worse. A lot of things have happened and idk if its effected me in some way. I have never said I want to kill myself but tried many times but it never kills me which is weird I guess. I tried to over dose I tried to cut myself and im not proud of it. I don't want to tell anyone bc my mom already thinks that im a whiney bitch and that im not going through stuff but its bc I don't tell her everything. and I don't even know who to go to anymore bc I keep running away from how I feel . I don't even cry anymore and when I do it feels like I can't stop. I need help but idk where to go and I feel lost.