So a couple hours ago I was talking with an online friend. We were talking about deep topic like true happiness, enjoyment and difference between the two, etc.
So I asked, if she doesn't need anything to be happy because she finds happiness in herself, why does she have sex (I just assumed that she does). And she said "why not"?
That was about when I felt so enraged that I've never felt that intense for my whole life, I don't think. Like she talks about it like sex is so simple and easy to get. And it isn't for me (at least I am not a virgin). At this point my mind if so messed up that I lost all hope in ever having sex with a girl I love, so I guess that's why it made my heart beat at like 200rpm and insane anger. I even understand that it was irrational because to be honest I am not too crazy about sex. But the fact is, I felt so angry that I wanted to instantly go out and do something so insane that.. I can't even talk about here. But luckily the anger rush stopped soon enough. How do I deal with this kind of shit?
So I asked, if she doesn't need anything to be happy because she finds happiness in herself, why does she have sex (I just assumed that she does). And she said "why not"?
That was about when I felt so enraged that I've never felt that intense for my whole life, I don't think. Like she talks about it like sex is so simple and easy to get. And it isn't for me (at least I am not a virgin). At this point my mind if so messed up that I lost all hope in ever having sex with a girl I love, so I guess that's why it made my heart beat at like 200rpm and insane anger. I even understand that it was irrational because to be honest I am not too crazy about sex. But the fact is, I felt so angry that I wanted to instantly go out and do something so insane that.. I can't even talk about here. But luckily the anger rush stopped soon enough. How do I deal with this kind of shit?