i cant see auras, but i can feel the color. its hard to explain, but its like seeing the color with my brain. and its usually more than one color but instead of mixed, it will be something like one colour with streaks or flecks of another. and they have different textures too. some will be like a bubble; clear, light and airy, but when caught by the light has swirls of colour. others will be very dense. some are like sandpaper and others like clouds which are light but envelope you and make it hard to breath. so on and so forth. i've never in my whole life met someone who feels anything like i do. i'm beginning to think there is just something wrong with my brain. like maybe i'm a schizo or something. but then one day there was like a transfer of energy. i get deja vu all the time too. usually they are only a few seconds and i cant see the faces of people in them but i can still see what is gong on. most of the time i have symbolistic visions though. more rarely do i have actual visions like deja vu. anyway, one day i stood up to get a drink and as i got to my door i passed out. it was not from standing up too fast because i had been fine when i stood up and looked in my mirror before going towards my door.
my vision type thing started out with me walking in some jungle type forest thing on a wooden path watching two alligators fight with each other. there were snakes all over the place. but one snake in particular caught my attention. it seemed to look at me and want me to follow. so i followed if up the wooden path having to duck underneath enormous spider webs with multiple spiders all sharing the same webs. when i got to the top i was looking over a beach. it looked like it was going to storm soon. i looked around for the snake but it was no where to be found. instead there was a man who's face i could not see. at first he seemed to be an average 17-19 year old male. but then i noticed he had a big cut out on his chest. it was just gone and there was nothing inside. he was hollow except for his heart, just floating there. then he held his arm out towards me, as if offering me something. his fingers moves as if he held his own beating heart. his fingers pulsed rhythmically as he seemed to gesture, or speak without words, no.. its more like he sent his thoughts directly into my head. "here. take it. i cant have this" it was then i notices blood oozed from his hand and dripped off his elbow. his shirt stained from when he must have been hollowed out. i almost saw his face but when i stepped closer i woke up.
i immediately called my friend david because he is the only one i have met who can feel energy too, just differently than me. he told me it was to much to be coincidence. he told me he had been thinking about these islands he learned about in school which had many alligators and snakes and spiders of different species sharing the same webs. and later on how he wondered what it would be like to be hollow and he was going to write a song about it. david has some of most powerful and raw energy i have ever felt.
after that i figured the images i sometimes saw throughout the day were not always just in my head. i think if might have something to do with me being a fire sign too. i mean fire is life, passion, creation. but i could just be searching for an answer i might never find. david tries to help me understand how to control my energy but seeing as how his is different it proves quite difficult. so i was just wondering of you had any advice. if not i understand. it just gets really frustrating when i see and hear things i do not wish too. its like i could really care less what some jock with a girlfriend thinks about my body you know? its annoying. and being an empath able to feel energies, sometimes if it is strong i can feel the emotion that person feels right off the bat. so when i'm around david and he is angry i tend to get angry. and sometimes i'll be at school and just have this overwhelming urge to break down and cry for no reason only to later find out a girl in the next room just got dumped. in order to function in society i need to be able to control this but i dont know where to start. any ideas? it would be very much appreciated.
to avoid confusion, i passed out and had a vision. i didnt just pass out randomly =]
my vision type thing started out with me walking in some jungle type forest thing on a wooden path watching two alligators fight with each other. there were snakes all over the place. but one snake in particular caught my attention. it seemed to look at me and want me to follow. so i followed if up the wooden path having to duck underneath enormous spider webs with multiple spiders all sharing the same webs. when i got to the top i was looking over a beach. it looked like it was going to storm soon. i looked around for the snake but it was no where to be found. instead there was a man who's face i could not see. at first he seemed to be an average 17-19 year old male. but then i noticed he had a big cut out on his chest. it was just gone and there was nothing inside. he was hollow except for his heart, just floating there. then he held his arm out towards me, as if offering me something. his fingers moves as if he held his own beating heart. his fingers pulsed rhythmically as he seemed to gesture, or speak without words, no.. its more like he sent his thoughts directly into my head. "here. take it. i cant have this" it was then i notices blood oozed from his hand and dripped off his elbow. his shirt stained from when he must have been hollowed out. i almost saw his face but when i stepped closer i woke up.
i immediately called my friend david because he is the only one i have met who can feel energy too, just differently than me. he told me it was to much to be coincidence. he told me he had been thinking about these islands he learned about in school which had many alligators and snakes and spiders of different species sharing the same webs. and later on how he wondered what it would be like to be hollow and he was going to write a song about it. david has some of most powerful and raw energy i have ever felt.
after that i figured the images i sometimes saw throughout the day were not always just in my head. i think if might have something to do with me being a fire sign too. i mean fire is life, passion, creation. but i could just be searching for an answer i might never find. david tries to help me understand how to control my energy but seeing as how his is different it proves quite difficult. so i was just wondering of you had any advice. if not i understand. it just gets really frustrating when i see and hear things i do not wish too. its like i could really care less what some jock with a girlfriend thinks about my body you know? its annoying. and being an empath able to feel energies, sometimes if it is strong i can feel the emotion that person feels right off the bat. so when i'm around david and he is angry i tend to get angry. and sometimes i'll be at school and just have this overwhelming urge to break down and cry for no reason only to later find out a girl in the next room just got dumped. in order to function in society i need to be able to control this but i dont know where to start. any ideas? it would be very much appreciated.
to avoid confusion, i passed out and had a vision. i didnt just pass out randomly =]