I keep falling into the same sin in one way or another. I know that life is not all rainbows and unicorns. I am miserable. I thought I was a Christian, but I keep making the same stupid mistake over and over again (if not in deed, then in thought).
I ask God to help me, but He seems far away. I know that it's my fault where I am. I know that I am selfish. I don't know what to do to climb out of this hole I've dug for myself.
Help me. Please. I don't feel like I have anyone to turn to. And if God hears me, I don't know if He is listening. I am lost. I just don't know what to do. I hate myself because I keep screwing up. I wish I was dead so I wouldn't have to deal with any of this. I know how self-absorbed and ridiculous that sounds. Maybe I don't really mean it, but right now it feels like I would rather not exist.
I ask God to help me, but He seems far away. I know that it's my fault where I am. I know that I am selfish. I don't know what to do to climb out of this hole I've dug for myself.
Help me. Please. I don't feel like I have anyone to turn to. And if God hears me, I don't know if He is listening. I am lost. I just don't know what to do. I hate myself because I keep screwing up. I wish I was dead so I wouldn't have to deal with any of this. I know how self-absorbed and ridiculous that sounds. Maybe I don't really mean it, but right now it feels like I would rather not exist.