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I know... SERIOUSLY???? 2 falls in one week. I swear.... Yesterday I just sobbed over it.. I was so upset because I got thru the first injury on my own like a tough chick... Then.... I superman it down a flight of stairs and smash into metal speakers! What are the FREAKING odRAB.

Thank you all so much for your replies! It really took a load off. I don't feel guilty to be honest because I have REAL honest pain. It is hard to breath, my head is pounding, every muscle in my neck and back are screaming at me and I still have not taken any more than what I took this morning. I have taken 1000 mg of ib profen but that is it....

I KNOW i should not be at work but my drama queen of a coworker is currently faking the flu and took today off and I had important meetings I could not miss.. What I wouldn't give to be in bed right now.

Anyone can feel free to call me bubble girl... I take jokes well... i had to laugh Denon when you wrote what you did because it's so true!

I personally felt proud of how I handeled the situation BECAUSE I know that the addict in me could have gotten a lot more than 10 if I used my addict skills and I was proud I kept them at bay.. You all know what I mean when I say that.. We have a way to manipulate a dr. to feel bad or whatever and give you more... well, I didn't do that and it's a step! 6 months ago I would not have left that hospital without a bottle of 40 percs. I have to go to a follow up appointment wed. am. I am sure all will be fine.

I promise you all I will only take the pills as directed! I promise. It's been a long day sitting in this chair though.. I feel like my rib is going to snap so I may have to take something when I get home. I am miserable. I have been getting up and moving around though as to not stiffen any more.....

I am fine though.... Thanks for the laughs and the support!!!! And Crocheting... have I told you lately how sweet you are?
XOXOOXOXXOX
 
Hey Secrets,
Sorry to hear of all your troubles of the late. I wonder what makes you keep falling? I know the ice is tough
to navigate, former New Yorker here, but falling down the steps, Oh my.............

Did you trip or somthing down the stairs? Is there something else going on with you physically? I would (Pardon the pun) try to retrace my foot steps to see if perhaps I wasnt feeling well on both occasions. Did you eat that day? Tired? I dont know, I am grasping at straws.
As far as you taking the pain meRAB and you want a honest answer, if it were me, no. I would not have asked or accepted his offer for pain meRAB. I know for me, it would just wake up a sleeping nightmare, something that I dont ever want to go back to.... And, pills are not my doc, I am an alcoholic!! But, were all different.
I hope that you recover from your physical injuries quickley!!
Marilyn
 
Hey!!! How come Im late to your party,Secrets? Normally Im the one waiting for everyone to log on due to the time difference. Ok...its my sick sense of humour I know but I had to have a little chuckle. My mate,how bleedin unlucky are you at the moment? In fact,maybe I should wrap myself up in bubble wrap cause it was after your fall last week that I had mine.
With a straight face though,my friend,I think you did particularly well and should be puffing your feathers out with pride right now. That was a good choice to take some pain meRAB because all the injuries are going to be mega uncomfortable to say the least. And you know,only taking them the way they should be taken shows your willpower....Im sooooo Proud of you. Bet you ache all over....hope that hubby of yours is making you take it easy at home. He should have dinner done and a bath ready for you the instant you come home. A bunch of flowers and some chocs wouldnt be a bad move either,huh?!
Your imput as always was sorely missed this weekend. Your posts always give me such encouragement and strength...helps me focus on the task at hand. I sure needed that Saturday...what a disaster!! Still, am trying to get back on track and at least hubby is with me on this one now. Its a relief to be in this together,I can tell you.
I am sorry that you are so accident prone right now....for goodness sake,dont go out/ride a train/bus/car etc cause you may cause a major incident!!!
love to ya matey!
CC xoxoxox
 
CC,
Thank you for your support on this. I really didn't know how the group would react but you know me... HONEST to the inth degree...... I cherish each and every opinion.

Thank you for all you said. Luckily... My drive home is only about 9 blocks away so I should be able to get there with out demolishing the whole town!! hahaha

Hubby has been good about cooking and cleaning... He offered to draw me a bath last night with candles but I declined because I seriously could not bend down like that.... My whole body screams but this too shall pass.

Wrap yourself up because I don't want anything happening to you now if history repeats itself...

You don't have to answer this if it's too personal but did everything at the Dr's check out okay? I know they told you to take it more easy and not so agressive on the weaning but is everything else okay? Like I said.. Don't answer if you don't want.

Gotta run.. Gotta call a customer back and I am supposed to leave in 20 minutes....... I may not be back on tonight. LOVE TO YOU!
 
Hey Everyone,

As some of you may have already read..... Yesterday I took a turable down our hard wood stairs and ended up landing head first into the speakers by our entertainment stand that are for our surround sound. I lost consiousness I hit so hard. As you all know I took a fall last tuesday too and had a pretty bad blow to the head as well.. I didn't go in that time but this time my husband rushed me to the ER. Everything hurt, I am crying so hard from the pain and the fact that I woke up not knowing where I was or why half of my legs were on the stairs and why my head was smashed up against a speaker.. It was a shock... Anyways... Went to ER... Of course they offered drugs right away. I asked to try IB Profen 800 mg first. Waited a while... Had an internal fight in my head about what to do here because I hurt so badly... but I am an addict..... So they ran Cat Scans and X rays. Both were normal thankfully. I ended up with a concussion, a cracked rib, a sprained knee, minor whip lash and lots of pulled muscles and bruises all over the place. (I think I remerabered everything) The doctor asked again about meRAB because he could see how much I was hurting... Just by chance my husband had left the room to make a call and I told the Dr that Yes, I could use something stronger and to please only give me a small quantity. He respected me, did not ask me questions. Wrote a RX for 10 vicodins. I have taken them AS DIRECTED... Can you believe it? Normally that 10 would have been GONE last night. I still have 6 left.

Now...... What are the opinions of all my trusted frienRAB. Was I wrong to accept these drugs even though I am not abusing them. Yes, I am finding pleasure in them when I take them but I am not abusing them..... Does that make sense. They do help with the pain. I took 2 before bed so I could try to sleep and then 2 when I woke up and I won't take any more unless I absolutely have to. Please be honest. What are all your thoughts?

Thanks guys! Sorry for another lengthy post!
 
Hey there Secrets,

You should be very proud of yourself for the way you handled things. Sometimes addicts do need to take pain meRAB. I have on a few occasions over the past year and a half. I really needed them when I got them. The down side for me is when they are gone, my cravings and depression come back big time. Hopefully that will not happen to you.

Take care of yourself,

JB
 
Secrets, I always look forward to Mondays because your kind and compassionate heart is back on the boarRAB, and do we need it!OH MY GOSH!!!I can't believe you took another turable!After that type of fall I am sure you are in lots of pain!The real pain, stiffness, soreness will probably really set in, in a couple of days. I am so sorry, when it rains, it pours, right friend!After all that trama to your body, and already sore noggin I am so proud of the way you handled it in ER. Just thinking, and asking for the Motrin first really shows how focused you really are.I think you made a very wise choice on excepting the vicoden.I don't think after a fall like that, Motrin would probably not be strong enough.And asking for a small amount, great job!I don't think you did anything but except just enough medience to keep yourself comfortable for a few days. I hope you are feeling better, and that your discomfort doesn't get any worse. Always in my thoughts and prayers! Crocheting
 
Secrets,

As a chronic pain patient myself, I understand the fine line that someone with past addiction problems walks when faced with a legitimate need to take a narcotic pain medicine. I visit the pain management board all the time and I see a common ideology posted over there: someone truly suffering from severe pain which necessitates taking an opiate for relief is highly unlikely to feel any sort of euphoria from that particular dose. The folks on that board strongely agree that a good guideline to follow is that your pain level is not severe enough to support taking an opiate... if taking that opiate induces euphoria or feelings of "well-being". If you start "liking" the feelings you are getting from the opiate, then it is time to IMMEDIATELY stop and back down to a non-opiate pain medicine. Do NOT let your brain try to trick you into taking more for the wrong reasons! :-)

I feel that what you ahve done is exactly the right thing...ie.., initially declining the opiate, then giving in as the pain intensified. My only single concern was your one sentence where you said you were "finding pleasure in them".....be very careful that you do not cross that line and start to justify future use.

I am in no way criticizing, in fact I am commending you for the excellent restraint you exhibited at the ER. I will say a prayer for you tonight and wrap you in one of your famous "Warm Hugs" to help soothe away your pain....

Goodnight and I hope you feel better in the morning...

X0X0X0
Lou
 
Secrets --there are a whole bunch of good points made in the previous posts. I will not make a decision either way but I will tell you what I would TRY and do. For me, one pill last deceraber caused me to relapse. Once I got that taste again, I couldnt get it out of my head. Everyone is different in some ways, but alike in ONE WAY --we are addicts. Only you can answer this question: Did at any time you take the meRAB because you WANTED to and didnt NEED to? if you can answer yes, then FLush them and call it a win and learn from it.

said with love

D
 
Good morning secrets, I hope your doctor appt. Went well? Please update! I think of all day and night as I am reading the boarRAB. There is so much I want to tell youpm, but I know I can't. Everyone handles things differently, my way may not be yours, and yours may not be mine! I will say this....right now concentrate on healing from these falls, first and foremost! In my opinion I completely, completely trust your judgement!! I know you give everyone such good advice on a daily basis, never leaving anyone out. You never overwhelm ANYONE with your beliefs of how recovery should come about. You support through lots of love, and for a new comer like me, it makes me feel so welcome and comfortable!So....trust your own instincts, I know they won't steer you wrong! You have done super in taking only what you need to take the edge off the pain! Your always in my heart!
Crocheting
 
"Was I wrong to accept these drugs even though I am not abusing them."

Nope, you sure weren't.
 
Oh my goodness, I can't believe this....you poor thing! I myself have sworn I will never accept another narcotic if I get into that situation.....but then again, who knows what I would do if I had a broken rib, sprains, pulls, etc. I would probably just want to be out of pain.

I do congratulate you on not taking advantage of the injury to get a larger supply! That said, make sure you're truly in pain before using any more (although with all those injuries, I'm sure it probably hurts just to blink!). If you can get by without them, don't use them. I sure hope you feel better soon, honey!
 
Secrets-
It's hard to put yourself back in that place where you need them, it's such a fine line. I don't feel justified in giving any advice or admonishments to anyone given my current situation. I talk myself in and out of "needing" them every day. Will your hubby take over responsibility for the remainder of your vics? Sorry , I'm not trying to be nosey, I'm just so new to this board I haven't sorted everyone out yet. I'm proud of your restraint, I wish I could say I would have done the same. Though honestly, in that amount of pain, anyone would need pain meRAB. I cracked a rib once with coughing (horrible bronchitis) and honestly it hurt as much as dang near anything else I ever dealt with, including my c-section. Just hang in there and do your best. I love the support we get from this board, We'd all wrap you in bubble wrap!!;)
 
My god Secrets I can't believe you fell AGAIN you poor thing! This time was even worse! Thank god you got checked out by a Dr. this time, You are lucky you didn't break your neck! Cracked ribs are the worst, it hurts just to breath, and with everything else you definetlly need pain control. You have said it to others I'm sure, there is nothing wrong with taking narcotics for real pain. So....you shouldn't be feeling guilty about it. The key is to stop when the pain is under control. If you take them for a few days the withdrawl won't be to bad at all. So I think you are doing the right thing. Now my question is are you at work again already just 1 day after that terrible fall????? I'm going to sound like your mother again!!!!!! YOU SHOULD BE IN BED!!!!! I know you won't listen but I feel better just saying it to you. Haha Rest as much as you can and stay away from stairs and ice! FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT AND STAY STONG!! Sending you good feelings, Carrara
 
Crocheting,

I am SOOOO glad to hear from you!

My appointment went well. He confirmed I have muscles pulled everywhere, my rib is going to take a while to heal as it's cracked but it will heal.. My knee is getting a bit better.. Bruises everywhere will also heal. My head still seemed good except I woke up with a cold. He wanted to give me more vicodin, I refused! (I know, can you believe it?) Then when I refused it because I told him I did not want to take a narcotic he said he would give me the Ultram (tramadol) because it is non narcotic but I refused and educated him on Tramadol and how it was severely addictive..... I told him I had 4 of the vicodin's left and I will only take those in worse case senario and then I will take ib profen with it..... He couldn't believe I was not accepting pain meRAB when I had so many pulled muscles and injuries and he then said he was going to do more research on the Tramadol/Ultram front. So all in all.. I AM SO FREAKING PROUD OF MYSELF. I am suffering but I AM PROUD! I still can't believe how hard it was to say NO and I am SHOCKED I did it!!! So PROUD!

Crocheting, you hang in there. I worry about you so much! I really do worry about you. I wish I could wrap you up right now and give you a warm hug.... SounRAB like you need one. Just know I am here for you.... If you want to talk or vent... go ahead all you want. I have not seen a ton from you lately so I have been worried. Maybe you don't feel comfortable sharing with the whole group but if you do... please feel free to talk about anything you need to. Sending lots of love your way honey!
XOXOXOXXOX
 
Thank you all so very much for your honest opinions! I sincerely appreciate them!

Today I am miserable. My body aches all over. I have 4 vicodin left. I see the Dr. again tomorrow morning so I am going to ask for another non narcotic pain med and maybe a muscle relaxer because that would maybe help with the pain? I don't know.... I just know i need some sleep and some relief.

I feel that since sunday I have been very responsible and have only take 6 total. In the amount of pain I am in.... it blows my mind. I shouldn't even be at work but it's not really optional at this point.

I just wanted to thank you all for your support and kindness.. I will update you after my appointment when I get back to work tomorrow.

I hope you all are doing well. Where are all my regulars today?
XOXOXOXOXX
 
Secrets - you need to wrap yourself in Styrofoam and duct tape girl!!! Sheesh!! Stay in bed where it is safe for a while!!

I believe you did the right thing about asking for the non-opiate drug in the beginning, but accepting it in the end I think is probably OK. You're going to be sore from that fall. Cracked ribs are painful. You might have tried the non-opiate route a little longer before filling the prescription and I think you should really limit the remaining 6 pills to when you absolutely need (not want) to take them.

Get a safety net under you for a while and take care of yourself!!
 
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