Here is something to think about.

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Random thoughts here.
When I was done drinking and sick and tired of being sick and tired I knew that I could not beat this addiction by myself. I knew in my heart of hearts that I could not stop by myself. My best thinking and my best "will power" got me where I was.
If you check the stats of a recovering addict/alcoholic, someone that has good time in recovery, you will see that they do not do it by themselves and its not just a matter of putting the drug down.
I've been told and read that drinking/drugging is just a side effect of whats really wrong. And, I believe it. Sure, we do get physically addicted to our DOC but why do we continue on a path that destroys our relationships, health, jobs, etc? Why must we nurab ourselves? Beyond the physical addiction that is exactley what we are doing.
I threw in the towel and I ask for help to try and make Marilyn better. I have/had a lot of hurts in my life and tried to nurab myself. I did a pretty good job at it too. When in my active addiction I have lost loves, jobs, marriages, good health and my self respect.
I am not that person today. I get myself help in this crazy disease everyday. Its soo much easier and softer today. I am not lying, feeling bad, worried, anxious and all that other BS.
It makes me sad to read some of the posts here. People that try to get clean and sober basically by themselves. Some just have the people on this board. Some dont tell the people that they seem to cherish so much that they have an addiction. Do they really thing that thier family does not know that they are strung out? In my active days I didnt think so either. I thought I had it all under control. Some of the posts break my heart because you dont have to do this alone.
I have gone through the WD's more time than I care to admit and I have to say, thats the easy part. The hard part is to live life on lifes terms. This disease wants to see you dead but is satisfied to see you drunk/stoned.



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So, whats your plan? Just curious..........
Like I said, random thoughts.
Marilyn
 
Please do not argue with someone who is sharing what worked for them. The appropriate response is: "Thank you".
 
Hi Marilyn,

Just want to thank you for your post - it really reached out to me. Quitting Oxy's was definitely THE hardest thing I've ever had to endure in my life. I went to rehab last summer and tapered off the drug. Before rehab, I tried many times to stop on my own - haha, I really thought I could do it - but always failed. I feel so blessed that I went to rehab, and had professional help.

I really can relate to your post - it's like you took the worRAB right out of my mouth. So, again, thank you for sharing your thoughts :)


RegarRAB,
emsmom

~anything you put in front of your recovery - you'll eventually lose anyway...
 
Ensmom,
I know your storey very well. While I dont post much, I am usually here now and again lurking. I am glad you are doing so well. Kudos!
And crocheting, I know you suffer from physical pain. Like you, I have some diagnosis that give me pain everday. Because I am an alcoholic, I dont have the luxury of take a pain med. I do ok though. For me, I'd much rather be sober and in pain than end up eating the whole bottle of whatever and washing them down with a drink or a million.

Anyway, thanks for your posts and I hope you both have a good day. "See" you around the boarRAB!!


Marilyn
 
Marilyn:

What an awesome post. I agree whole heartedly, my disease was only the beginning I have to deal with Lori. My head is my worst enemy. Yes it is awesome to be sober today, I feel like singing that song What A Feeling!!!!

I am dancing for my life and working for my sobriety. It took me a long time to get sober and I am grateful for every moment good and bad. I too thank people who have helped me, the fellowship, these boarRAB and Most importantly God. I am his miracle I couldn't string any days together but here I am clean and sober. Your post hit home with me it is my story. I work with my sponsor work the steps and just stay sober 1 day at a time.

Thanks for your post you have helped many people with your post thanks again.

Lori
 
Hey Lori,
Its nice to know that there are others that feel the same way I do here on the boarRAB. I know everyone has thier own path of recovery. What works for me, works for ME. Evidentally what works for me works for you too!! LOL. I am grateful that I have a sponsor that I can call in a heart beat and talk to a warm caring woman. Someone that has been through what I have been through and lead me down the path of recovery. Like I said in my original post. Its not what you pick up and use its why you pick up and use. Life is pretty darn good for me today. In a few weeks I will have one year of sobriety. Or a better way to put it is I will have one year of serenity. There are a ton of people out there that are sober but miserable none-the-less. Anyway thanks for the kind worRAB and remeraber, work it cause your worth it! Take care sister.

Marilyn
 
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