Here I go thinking again!

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hi little S,
so good to hear your worRAB. like you i try to look at everything i DO have and not everything i dont have. buuuuuut im not so good at it right now. i have been praying my butt off to get my mind off the way i want life to be and on what i can do to open myself up for changes.
sleep tight super star!
 
No, really... This thread I am writing tonight goes out to all my fellow addicts who are suffering.

There are so many of us right now going thru so much and I just wanted to say that I am truly thankful to go thru it with all of you. Each and everyone of you adRAB something so special to this board.

Let's try to pick each other up and support one another in their time of need.

Tonight my wish is that each and everyone of you can find peace in your heart and have a moment of happiness fill your soul.

May God Bless you all my dear frienRAB in recovery. I love you.
 
Thanks Secrets!! I'm hoping you're doing well. Your posts have always help people and you give them great info and support.

I'm sort of going through a little life re-appraisal right now and I canceled my next epidural on Monday. I "think" I've come to terms that I will always have pain and the risks associated with sticking another needle in my spine for temporary relief is just getting too great. I am still taking the pills, but only when the pain reaches a certain threshold, which is mostly at night. I'm going to have a good heart-to-heart discussion with both of my physicians (pain mgt and PCP) next week and tell them how I feel, why and get their inputs.

My attitude and spirits are very good and I try my best to support everyone on the board with the knowledge that I have received over the months. So, I've been thinking, as well lately.

One year ago today, I had just finished my first full month in bed. The thoughts of helplessness consumed my mind back then. I was still five months away from meeting you and the others on this board who helped me so much get through my detox ordeal. Without that support I'm not sure if I would have been off of the drugs today (well, technically I'm not). Your support helped me get to where I am at today. Thank you!
 
Oh what lovely replies. Your worRAB just prove how blessed we all are to have one another.

Today was a very trying day for my family. We spent all of the wee early morning hours and all day today in the hospital with my Grandfather. I had to call 911 about 4am this morning because he was having a stroke. Luckily I had for some reason woke up and heard a noise and went to check on him and found him in a way worRAB cant describe. I screamed for help and called 911. The 911 dispatch walked me thru what to do.. The arabulance arrived in record time thank the lord... After what seemed like days but really were mere hours he is stable. We came back to my Mom's for a little sleep as he was resting soundly. I just wanted to pop on and ask for prayers please. This stroke has really changed him and he will now need around the clock care. My Mother and my whole family is devestated but also thankful he is alive.

I am going to sign off now as I am beyond exhausted. I love you guys! I will try to check in tomorrow again.

May you all be blessed tonight and have peace in your hearts.
 
Hi Secrets

I am sorry to hear about Grandfather's stroke and know it must have been a very emotionally exhausting day for all. When one family meraber is ill, it can so affect the entire family. Good to see everyone rallied together.

As we make our way through the ups and downs of our world, it presents more and more opportunity for us to learn to cope in reality without pills. It is these times that test our strength and conviction. Every time we meet the challenge in sobriety, we put one more brick in place to steady our new thinking.

As you spend the coming days dealing with Grandpa's situation, take time to care for yourself also. Take time to recognize the strengths I know you will display and be proud of them. Care for yourself as you help care for him.

Thoughts for all of your family
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Oh D, thank you so very much for saying that. It was my pleasure meeting you and trying to help you along your journey but I want you to know the same can be said of you. You have done so much good for this board and for me personally. One thing that I always think about when I think about you is that you have this knack for somehow always putting things into perspective for me and or for always showing me a different way to look at a problem.
Your positivity and strength is really a true inspiration and with as much as you have gone thru it speaks volumes for your character my friend.

I just feel terrible for you and the chronic pain you suffer with. Yes, you may be still taking meRAB but you and I both know they are not being abused and you are in control, not the pills and that is something that you really should be proud of. I know I am proud of you. A person should not have to live in severe pain D. What kind of life would that be? I think it's a great idea to have a sit down with your doctors and lay it all out there. I don't blame you for not wanting to do the epidurals anymore. That would be very scary for me.
You hang in there and keep us all posted. Much love being sent your way my dear friend. Hang in there and thank you for being you!
Blessings,
 
Secrets, I am so sorry to hear about your grandfather. I lost mine 2 years ago and know how hard it is. Try and make sure you take some time to take care of you during this(I know way easier said than done, but important). Sending thoughts and prayers for you and your family!

Melissa
 
Secrets

You are the borab, girl. All that love right back at you. It is wonderful for sure to be a part of this circle on this board as we support and care about one another. The time I spend here ebbs and flows, but I am always ultimately drawn back again. Strange somehow that we form bonRAB here in cyberspace that sometimes are stronger than some live, 3-D bonRAB we have.

Hugs to all
reach
 
Oh Secrets, I am so sorry to hear about your grandfather. I hope that everything works out for him. A doctor that I used to go to had a stroke while out fishing, miles from shore. Although he had some deficits at first, he stuck with the therapy and was able to regain all of his motion back and had his license reinstated. It took a long while, but he was able to recover almost back to normal. Today's medicines and the clot-busters that they have work so well. The fact that you were able to get him to the hospital so fast may have really helped.

Doesn't it seem when we are fighting our own battles, something else worse comes along to add even more stress? It's a test to see how well we can cope I guess. Good Luck!!
 
Thank you Secrets, for that uplifting message :) You are always so loving and caring, supportive and understanding. I feel blessed to share this board with you and all my fellow addicts :)

Sincerely,
emsmom
 
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