Help working out my sexuality?

Ronald

New member
OK, well this is a little strange (asking the internet for help) but the yahoo answer community seems nice enough so here goes:

I am a 15 year old male, and I am a bit confused. I am basically, just confused by the definition 'turned on'. You see, I can get an erection when thinking about girls in under a minute, and I have a girlfriend who I appreciate very much sexually. However my best guy friend told me he's gay a couple of weeks ago, and I guess it kinda made me think about my sexuality. People have said I act a bit gay on occasion which I suppose 'fueled my fire'.

In the end I got myself quite worked up about it, reading all sorts of articles online, matching myself up with every 'symptom' (for loss of a better word). So I tried fantasising about guys, and thought I would just play it by ear. I couldn't 'get it up', but there was like this immense achey, almost sexual feeling in my penis, and yet no sign of it becoming erect... I get these feeling now whenever the topic of 'gay' is mentioned, could this perhaps be anxiety? I have worried myself into thinking I am a gay and that this feeling is what turned on really feels like... I mean after I have this feeling, I want to masturbate sort of... but not realy because of what I just saw or anything... just because I guess it's drawn attention to my penis.

I am attracted to women, but I can see what an attractive man is, however I don't feel inclined towards homosexuality... it just doesn't really appeal to me, and yet still the anxiety and this feeling is still there. What the **** is it?

Cheers for reading, may I also add, when I hear anything about homosexuality, I sort of end up focusing really hard on my dick sub conciously and wandering if there is going to be any reaction, but there never is, other than this feeling... perhaps a symptom of obsession and anxiety? I know it seems like I have already diagnosed it, but confirmation is hard to come across any other way other than on the internet with such a delicate situation, especially as I live in a house with all male relatives, and everyone knows how awkward we are as a gender in discussing such things!

Cheers.
 
Back
Top