peace4autumn
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Hi. I'm fourteen years old and in ninth grade. I go to a real small school so there are only 7 other people in the highschool. i am the youngest in my class cause i just skipped a grade.
im really really shy and i have trouble finding friends. so i kinda tend to act the way i think a person would want me to so i can become their friend, if that makes sense. i try to become their idea of a perfect friend.
but the kids at my school... they arent really that good of friends.
most of them smoke outside in the woods at lunch break.
they bring alcohol in soda bottles and drink it at school.
they chew tobacco right in front of the teacher and spit it into empty coke cans.
and sometimes they do drugs out in the woods.
the saddest part is that they buy this all off of one of the student's parents.
and i try so hard to fit in that i smoked once
and im scared that i'll get worse.
my mom said i can homeschool if i want (she doesnt know the whole story) but for some reason i dont want to leave the school. even though they smoke and stuff i have two good friends there. they r in the middle school so i cant hang out with them at lunch or anything, but still.
and im afraid to leave
but my mom said that also if i leave that she will let me go to horsback riding lessons (which i always wanted) and do any sport i want and i really want this.
im just so confused and i have no clue what to do.
kinda sad that all of this is happening at a christian school. and the teachers have no clue.
just please give me some advice or tell me what you would do in this situation.
thankyou
i dont wanna be a snitch
im really really shy and i have trouble finding friends. so i kinda tend to act the way i think a person would want me to so i can become their friend, if that makes sense. i try to become their idea of a perfect friend.
but the kids at my school... they arent really that good of friends.
most of them smoke outside in the woods at lunch break.
they bring alcohol in soda bottles and drink it at school.
they chew tobacco right in front of the teacher and spit it into empty coke cans.
and sometimes they do drugs out in the woods.
the saddest part is that they buy this all off of one of the student's parents.
and i try so hard to fit in that i smoked once
and im scared that i'll get worse.
my mom said i can homeschool if i want (she doesnt know the whole story) but for some reason i dont want to leave the school. even though they smoke and stuff i have two good friends there. they r in the middle school so i cant hang out with them at lunch or anything, but still.
and im afraid to leave
but my mom said that also if i leave that she will let me go to horsback riding lessons (which i always wanted) and do any sport i want and i really want this.
im just so confused and i have no clue what to do.
kinda sad that all of this is happening at a christian school. and the teachers have no clue.
just please give me some advice or tell me what you would do in this situation.
thankyou
i dont wanna be a snitch