Edward Astanin
New member
I really want to go to College but I am having trouble getting any financial aid. Here is a short background of my situation.
I grew up in an emotionally and physically abusive family. I was the second oldest of 7 so whenever my parents would go on their abusive sprees I would try and stand up for my brothers/sisters and in turn I would become my parent's target for abuse. I took a lot of abuse from my parents because I could not stand hearing the yells and shrieks of my brothers and sisters it just tore my heart apart. And what made it worse is that when my parents used to beat my brothers/sisters they would yell at them to shut the "f" up and you would just see them quivering trying not to make a squeak.
I cried myself to sleep many times. When it came to my abuse it was always generally on a much worse scale because I was older than my brothers/sister, I only had an older sister. My father would use his fists on me, he would punch me in the skull, chest or anywhere that struck his fancy. Sometimes he would just grab what was at hand, be it rubber tubing, rubber jump rope or even once a metal pipe.
Because of what I went through, from very early on I was socially awkward, I just did not know how to interact with people. This coupled with the fact that my parents only allowed me to be friends with Russian people (nationalist parents) sealed my fate at being a social reject. My parents also prohibited me from reading any English literature but I used to sneak in books anyways and immerse myself in a world where everything was different.
At the age of 17 my parents abandoned me, that puts it lightly, my dad was drunk and he needed to take out his anger on the world at someone so he grabbed me and unleashed a fury of punches and blow on me, then threw me out on the street with nothing more than $2.75 in my pocket in change.
I walked about 10 miles to my friends house and used his phone to call my grandparents who lived on the other side of the country, they quickly bought me a plane ticket. My friend drove me to the airport and I slept there until the morning and took the plane to Massachusetts (originally coming from the state of Washington).
So now I am 18 and cannot fill out the FAFSA because of my social situation I always kept everything inside and never told anyone about this. Therefore I cannot get a letter written by a teacher or counselor or anyone like that. I also can't fill it out with my parents information because well they will not give it to me and I do not want to talk to them because of the circumstances.
What should I do and how should I get to college? I had a bright future ahead of me I was doing well in highschool. But once I got thrown out of my home I was forced to get a GED because my parents would not give my grandparents gaurdianship rights, and going through court was useless because I was already 3 months away from being 18 years old.
I did score very well on my GED though ranking in the top tenth percentile in the state of Mass and I got a 1950 on my SAT. I just really want to go to college as it is something I have always worked for. I want to go into aeronautical engineering. So is there any way I can still get financial aid or am I doomed to never go to college?
I have tried contacting my colleges financial aid department and they are not helpful at all. All they gave me was a form to fill out and I needed to include my tax information (I never filed taxes as I didnt work) and they wanted a letter from a proffessional such as a teacher or counselor explaining my situation.
But as I said I never discussed this with anyone as it seemed awkward. Growing up in an abusive family doesn't exactly make a person open up to others easily.
I grew up in an emotionally and physically abusive family. I was the second oldest of 7 so whenever my parents would go on their abusive sprees I would try and stand up for my brothers/sisters and in turn I would become my parent's target for abuse. I took a lot of abuse from my parents because I could not stand hearing the yells and shrieks of my brothers and sisters it just tore my heart apart. And what made it worse is that when my parents used to beat my brothers/sisters they would yell at them to shut the "f" up and you would just see them quivering trying not to make a squeak.
I cried myself to sleep many times. When it came to my abuse it was always generally on a much worse scale because I was older than my brothers/sister, I only had an older sister. My father would use his fists on me, he would punch me in the skull, chest or anywhere that struck his fancy. Sometimes he would just grab what was at hand, be it rubber tubing, rubber jump rope or even once a metal pipe.
Because of what I went through, from very early on I was socially awkward, I just did not know how to interact with people. This coupled with the fact that my parents only allowed me to be friends with Russian people (nationalist parents) sealed my fate at being a social reject. My parents also prohibited me from reading any English literature but I used to sneak in books anyways and immerse myself in a world where everything was different.
At the age of 17 my parents abandoned me, that puts it lightly, my dad was drunk and he needed to take out his anger on the world at someone so he grabbed me and unleashed a fury of punches and blow on me, then threw me out on the street with nothing more than $2.75 in my pocket in change.
I walked about 10 miles to my friends house and used his phone to call my grandparents who lived on the other side of the country, they quickly bought me a plane ticket. My friend drove me to the airport and I slept there until the morning and took the plane to Massachusetts (originally coming from the state of Washington).
So now I am 18 and cannot fill out the FAFSA because of my social situation I always kept everything inside and never told anyone about this. Therefore I cannot get a letter written by a teacher or counselor or anyone like that. I also can't fill it out with my parents information because well they will not give it to me and I do not want to talk to them because of the circumstances.
What should I do and how should I get to college? I had a bright future ahead of me I was doing well in highschool. But once I got thrown out of my home I was forced to get a GED because my parents would not give my grandparents gaurdianship rights, and going through court was useless because I was already 3 months away from being 18 years old.
I did score very well on my GED though ranking in the top tenth percentile in the state of Mass and I got a 1950 on my SAT. I just really want to go to college as it is something I have always worked for. I want to go into aeronautical engineering. So is there any way I can still get financial aid or am I doomed to never go to college?
I have tried contacting my colleges financial aid department and they are not helpful at all. All they gave me was a form to fill out and I needed to include my tax information (I never filed taxes as I didnt work) and they wanted a letter from a proffessional such as a teacher or counselor explaining my situation.
But as I said I never discussed this with anyone as it seemed awkward. Growing up in an abusive family doesn't exactly make a person open up to others easily.