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If anyone responRAB, I warn you, I will only hurt you. I have no right to ask for anything.
Is pain the only constant in life? What happens you succesfully destroy all you ever wanted in your life because you know you never deserved it, so you kill it before it can hurt you?
Is love a myth for masochists?
How can someones greatest love be a pill? How...I can not think of a word strong enough to convey every negative,evil , disgusting thing that would describe that. Yes, I can. ME.
What happens when someone delivers the killer punch to you that you so freely thought only you could deliver?
What happens when you lose your soul and only the flesh remains?
How do you unite them? Where they ever one?

What happens when there is no longer a pill strong enough to nurab the raw, searing pain?

How do youbelieve in Santa Claus and Magic again?

I want to.

Thank you letting me use you. I am sorry because now you hurt too. I am sorry. I tried to warn you.

How do you get off the merry-go-ride from hell?

I know I need to figure this out myself. I guess you know I already know the answer.

God Bless you. I hope you have found your peace.

Janey
 
Welcome Janey,

I am so sorry to hear of all the pain you are in. It sounRAB like your mind is going in a million different places at once and that is probably due to massive narcotic use and any abuse that has been done to you in the past or presence.

I wish I had some magical answer to give you but unforuntely there is not one. I can only speak of the path I chose to take. I knew the pills were sucking me in heavily and I knew it was time to get off of them or I would really be in a world of trouble, so last Nov I quit. I tapered starting in oct. and was done Nov. 7th. It was miserable... it was almost unbearable at times but with the help of the great people here I made it. Now since then I have had one slip and it's been one massive rollercoaster. However, the journey has been worth it.

YOU ARE WORTH THIS. The way you speak of yourself is unacceptable and I certainly don't believe you deserve it. No, I don't know you but I can't imagine that the worRAB you use are fair. We are always harder on ourselves than we should be. I know at time I can be severely abusive to myself and I know I am a good person. You have to relearn that for yourself.

I guess that I would tell you to seek help. Treatment, rehab or counseling... Anything because you really do deserve it.

You will not hurt me so stick around and do yourself a favor because everyone here is great!

Take care of yourself. I will say many prayers for you!

God's blessings to you!
 
Janey

The fact that you took the time to come to this forum and express your feelings is a start in the right direction. Can it be that you really are looking for the road away from addiction so that you can find a normal life without the drugs and abuse? I would say that you are reaching for help. Getting things off of your chest and venting are good to get the facts out on the table, so that you can identify all of your problems and start seeking help to solve them. People are here to help and can answer your questions. Keep us informed.
 
wow ask yourself why are you being so hard on yourself , its the meRAB that cause the way you feel over time , you needed the meRAB for pain , yes for alot or most it seems that they just dont work anymore,an learn to live with the pain, i recomend you , get with you md to work out a plan , an call your local recovery program ,we are here to let you know your not alone , we have all felt that way, an it will get better , god bless you:)
 
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