Help Me . . . . :(

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J(L)x

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someone can tell me to do something two minutes ago &; i sometimes will forget.

i feel so empty inside - like i feel like i have a fear that even if one of my own family member's died - i wouldn't feel any pain. that scares me.

i find myself talking to myself more &; more.
like i'll think about changing my hair and i'll say to myself over and over OUTLOUD "okay i'm gonna do this" ... and keep repeating it over and over till it finally gets in my head.

i have sex not because i exactly want to - but i feel the need to please men. i like the feeling of being wanted and them being totally satisfied with me.

these are just a few issues. i have so many more. i don't know what it is. i feel depressed - but it feels like it's more serious than that.

i can't stop talking to myself out loud more and more. and it scares me , because i tell myself to stop.

when i read things from the guy i like - i have to keep re-reading them OVER and OVER to finally grasp what he just said . like if he says "you're very beautiful - god i love you " i'll keep reading the line your very beautiful to myself outloud several times before i can even move on to the i love you

i keep having mood swings .

i think i'm going to go see a shrink - but before i do - i want general ideas of what i might have before i take a step into the office. HELP ME.
 
It sounds like Major Depression to me. I have bipolar disorder. Major Depression, which is also called Unipolar Depression, runs in my family so I can relate to the seriousness of your symptoms.

Memory difficulties, extreme difficulty concentrating and especially "feeling empty inside" or emotionless (the medical term for it is anhedonia) are all signs of Major Depression, a very serious, very physical disease of brain chemistry.

Anxiety, jitteriness, low self esteem, feelings of dread, guilt, mood swings, fatigue or agitation, sleeping too much or not enough, waking up in the early morning (like 4am) and not being able to get back to sleep (called Early Morning Wakefulness), dissociative states (feelings of unreality, feeling like a "ghost" or familiar personal items suddenly seem "wrong" or alien), talking to yourself, yelling at yourself, yelling at everybody else or not talking at all, awful terrible intrusive thoughts, and sometimes feeling nothing (anhedonia) like the brain just gives up and you go blank, like a zombie.

I'm glad to hear you're going to a Pdoc (shrink). You don't have endure this, mood disorders can be treated just like any other illness. :)
If you'd like to do some research this MedlinePlus page is a start: http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/depression.html
 
well u somehow described me , my mom passed away last week , i still cant believe shes dead , and my mind is rejecting this fact all the time.
i have the exact symptoms as urs , my dad tells me to do somethin i forget in minutes , and so its the same with everyone , and that gets me into trouble.

and sometimes i have this focusing issue , i red simple plain sentences that should be understood from the 1st time theyr read , but i just cant understand a word!! and i keep on re-reading them for minutes till i understand them!! wat the hell is that?!

mood swings... since years..
so wat the hell is that? major depression 2?
 
see i don't think i have depression though. i've taken pills before and nothing helped. i was on so many of them. all this shit just popped up again. and it's getting worse. and i have no reason to be depressed to be honest. i feel like it's something else. but i can't find the illness for it.
 
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