my friend chris met jordan on a camping trip. after wards, they friended each other on facebook. my bestfriend lizzy and jordan started talking, commenting on one of chris's statuses. he friended her, and they talked for a while. they flirted, and he asked her out. i know this sounds really weird, but just please hear me out. they went out for a week or two, but broke up, cause they stopped liking each other. then, she told me to text him, because he and i are a lot alike. we texted for a couple weeks, and (with her permission, they are just friends now) he asked me out. we went out for two months, said i love you, and i know this is really creepy... but sexted and umm some other stuff on the phone. then we decided to break up, because he lives in orangevale and i live in placerville (an hour apart) and we are both 14, so we cant drive.but we still loved each other, even if it couldn't work.eventually, he got over me. but im still hella in love with me, even though a lot of shit has gone down with him flirting with other girls, and him friending a girl i hate, and asking her out to make me jealous -she said no-. but yes, he can be a selfish asshole, but he's also the sweetest most amazing guy ever. and i know this may seem completely ridiculous because we've never met, but im in love with him. and i could go to the mall, and meet him there, but i dont want to, cause in my opinion, im fat and ugly, and i dont want him to know that he sexted and stuff with a fat whale, cause lizzy is skinny and all the other girls hes liked are... pretty and skinny and beautiful, and i am NOT. he says differently, but he hasnt met me so he can suck itt. anyway, haha, we got in this fight, and he told me that he thought he had feelings for me again, but he guessed not. long story short, he wanted me to get over him completely, cause it would be better for me? and so we agreed not to talk for a month. not on the phone, or video chat, or text or message. he unfriended me on facebook, too. that was on the 10th, and im dying over here. weve taken little breaks before, but its the fact that im NOT ALLOWED to talk to him that kills me. and because we are not facebook friends, and i have all my privacy setting checked, so he can only see my picture and my name, and i can see his whole profile cause he has none of his privacy settings checked. and he's living so happily without me, and im dying without him. and i need to get over him. its pointless, i probly never gonna meet him, until i get over my self-esteem issues, and he probably doesnt even want me in his life. even tho he supposively hella cares about me. any advice? help? anything? thanks 