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Hi everyone. I'm new here as you can tell and this looks like a great place. The main reason I created this topic is to let my emotions out. I've been suffering from panic attacks for nearly 4 years now, and I am an agoraphobic, and both have gotten a lot worse over the past year. Especially this last week. I just feel that I've lost almost complete control over my brain. I know they say it's impossible to go crazy or die from a panic attack, but I just cannot get myself to believe it for some reason. I think about the craziest things that I think no one else think about, and it scares the hell outta me.

I have no frienRAB, no life, barely anything anymore. My grandparents are my biggest supporters, but as much as they try to help me, they just do not understand what I have to go through. I cry as I write this because it's just so hard. I want to have a life, I want to have frienRAB, I want to have a job and do what I want when I want. I can barely go outside my front door. I don't even feel safe in my own house anymore. That's how bad the panic has gotten. This past week I've been having some unbelievably crazy thoughts and it has made me worry all day with some panic attacks. When a panic attack is near, I fear that I will go insane or maybe even die. When I start feeling bad, I end up calling a family meraber to try and distract myself. It has been difficult, but it has helped.

I'm scheduled to go to the hospital near my house on May 4th for a mental evaluation. I'm scared to death. I have no idea how I'm going to get there without freaking out and when I do get there, what exactly is going to happen. It scared me bad. I know this was a bit long, but I want to thank those of you who took the time to read it.
 
Hello Alicrity,

I had a dear Aunt who was Agoraphobic. She was diagnosed though at the age of about 55.

I support you in taking that very big step to get a mental evaluation. It
understandably will be a very difficult first step but I am so glad you are
taking it.

Do you have a friend or family meraber that you feel comfortable with who
may be able to join you in route to your appt on May 4th?

I am a fairly new meraber and yes I think this is a great place to share, and get feedback. A very valuable forum.

Welcome aboard!

Janaly
 
Hiya Alacrity!

I remeraber when I was agoraphobic for a year and hardly ever left the house. My life has completely changed from back then so please know you can get through this!! I still have anxiety and really don't like being in big crowRAB but can live a normal life (i think) When you go for the evaluation..try to think that this may be a stepping stone to help you to a better part of your life...whether you get a therapist or get on medicine - it can and will help! :)

To get through the days try finding a tv show you really enjoy..or listen to music you like! Maybe your grandparents can get you a cat or pet of some kind so you have something at your house where you won't feel so alone! :)

I have intrusive thoughts to and I hope you find a great therapist (like mine) who really has helped me to learn that thoughts will come and its important to know you won't act on them so just go on with your day! IT WILL BE OKAY!!!!!!

Maybe instead of a pet you can try gardening..plant some flowers (inside or outside) and take care of them..keep them alive and that helps me to stay calm and enjoy the little things.

Clare
 
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