So, I'm 14, and i'm a guy. Like 3 weeks ago i was at this party and ya, ok i had been drinking. This guy comes up to me and is like "hey, my name's alex u wanna go upstairs?" and welk, I was almost drunk so I said yes. One thing lead to another and I ended up losing my virginity to him that night. The next day i kinda freaked out about it, but i've kinda known i was gay for a little while n i became cool with it. I still felt terrible tho, cos i didnt know him at all and i was only 13 when i did it. So then like 2 weeks ago i see him at my school. I had no idea he even went to my school. He came up to me and he's like "hey, ur brendon right? that was really fun at that party the other night." and then he asked me to go over to his house that afternoon. he picked me up from school that day, and i went to his house. I know, stupid move. There was nobody else home, so i felt kinda weird. He asked me if i wanted anything to drink, and i thought he just ment like, water but he brought me a glass of wine. I drank a little, but not nearly enough get me even close to drunk. He told me that he was 17, whick i thought was cool. We ended up having sex, again, even tho i wasnt really that into it. It's happened like 2 more times since then. He makes me be bottom every time and it FUCKING HURTS, but every time he says it'll feel better than the last time. As much as I dont really want to be doing this, it's fun to be able to talk about with my friends and feel all experienced. I have no idea what to do. None. Plz help me??