Has anyone gone through this?

[LL09]

Hey everyone I will try to make this as short as possible. I have been suffering from GAD and minor OCD for about 4 years now, although I never got told that until this year when I started seeing a psycologist.

So over the past years I have had all the symptoms...first thought I was having heart problems, I wasn't. Got all the physical symtoms aches and pains everywhere. pain in my chest and near my heart..severe head aches...hypocondria for days on end..I have thought I was dying on many occasions.

Anyway over the past 4 months things have been really weird...I started taking Citlopram with Xanax as needed I didn't leave my house for over a week because I had no car so I started to feel like I was confiened to my house and close areas not good!..the citlopram made me feel like a zorabie and gave me some uncomfortable thoughts so I was only on it for a week then stopped. I take the Xanax when I need to. Anyway after I stopped taking it I was in a better mood motivated to get better, start a program find a job and get my life together.

Then I got in this funk where I felt like I was crazy...literally I felt like I was losing my mind...like any second I would just burst and end up in the mental hospital..I went to the doctors and got a full physical and everything was fine they said I was a healthy looking 22 year old male. Since then the mental shape has changed a couple times...I will be happy and motivated one day and then the next 3 days I will feel like maybe it is my last 3 days to live.. and Just lately I feel like there is just nothing here..maybe that sounRAB crazy..but I almost feel like its all a dream.

I have a girl in my life I haven't seen in over a month because she is so busy and we are at a confusing place so that is on my mind not stop...as well as what this life is supposed to bring and what my purpose is..I think about these things non stop...I'm so tired..my mind is so tired from all the thoughts...one second I feel like i'm dreaming...nothing has feeling or meanings..and my eye sight gets kind of messed up and it scares me a lot...and the next second i'm fully here but nothing matters it never gets any better it will always stay the same...then I might actually feel happy for half a day or so and then all starts over again..

I seriously feel like I'm losing it..my mind scares me sometimes and I know I control everything and all my thoughts but what if I am the one person who does have someting seriously wrong and its not just anxiety/depression I guess I'm just going on and on so I'll stop but anyone else out there feel like this?? anything to help??

 

[anonlexaprogal]

Perhaps you should try something other than Citlopram (Celexa). Maybe this isn't the right drug for you. Tell your doctor you'd like to try a different medication.

I take Lexapro and it has made a huge difference in my anxiety issues. I have GAD due to an irabalance of Serotonin in my brain.

Check with your doctor. He/She may be willing to prescribe a different medication. He/She will probably want you to stick with a medication for at least a month (unless it is causing you any dangerous side effects or thoughts of suicide which can be a serious side effect of SSRI's) Also, talk therapy can help get you through the weeks of getting used to a new medication. The side effects can seem brutal when beginning a new medication, especially topped off with having this huge amount of anxiety.

 

[sh 08]

i was having the same problem as you!!!! BUT i was on celexa for years it just stopped working. I felt like i was crawling out of my skin and needed to be in a padded room but for literally no reason at all! i started to feel like i was going insane and mad and didn't know why, it is called depression but i like to refer to it as a chemical irabalance. the Dr switched me from celexa because i guess it contains only 1 chemical seratonin booster in it whereas the one he put me on now has 2 and so far so good. I am taking effexor and also clonazopam (its like xanax or ativan) to help with the anxiety until the effexor kicks in. I was really scared to take the new med because everyone was calling it a bad drug but it seemed the only time it was bad was when people came off of it withdrawal wise, well almost if not all antidepressents do that!! a chemical irabalance just doesn't go away overnight and people start to feel better, because the meRAB work and decide to off of them and they feel like garbage after but did they ever think the reason they felt better was because of the med???? and i don't mean feel like garbage because of withdrawals i mean their depression returned. I have tried SO many different meRAB and so far so good with this one. Celexa helped a little bit but maybe give this one a try? with all meRAB you need to give them time alot of people assume you take one or 2 pills and you start to feel better but it doesn't work that way also the side effects, which do go away, make you question why your taking a pill that made you feel worse than before you started it...but you just need time, you probably won't get better on your own and you can try reading and talking yourself out of it as much as you want, for most of us a book doesn't fix a chemical irabalance! good luck

 

[Mccd]

Yes i agree with Wlftn. Meditation is the way to go!.The cause of anxiety , obsessive thoughts & depression are problems related to the mind. What better way to tackle the problem from the root. Chasten the mind!! You can only chasten the mind through meditation..

 

[Snicky1271]

I've been through pretty much the same thing. Mood swings, happy one minute, depressive the next. There may be a lot going on (OCD, Anxiety, Depression) and it is really hard to tackle all that at once while feeling crazy! By the way, although this probably won't sink in right now, but rule of thurab, if you think you are crazy, you're not! Really crazy people think the world is wrong and they are right. You're just suffering from extreme fears which is very common with these anxiety disorders. I have often felt like I am on the edge, any minute I could almost....become another person and do something crazy? Its weird but thats the name of the game.

1.) Try perhaps Effexor. It really helped me/helps me with my depression. Nobody can help themselves when they feel horrible all the time. What is nice about Effexor is that is a "cureall" in a way, in that it helps pretty much everything. Tricyclic with neoepinephrine.

2.) If you are feeling really anxious try breathing techniques (don't worry about meditation right now........). Breathe in through your nose out through the mouth. SounRAB silly and something you would do in Middle school health class but no. It really does help. You may breathe fast at first but after a little try to slow it down. Think about just barely breathing on a flickering candle. Stick with it. It will help clear the mind which brings me to the third point.

3.) Clear your mind! Im sure you think that is impossible and to tell you to the truth, getting out of those funks where you can't stop thinking is challenging. It takes practice. So so start now.

You need to focus on the present. Yes, its a vague suggestion but what I mean by that is that you need to be HERE, not in THERE (your head).
Hope this helps and stick with it brother.

~Stuart

 

[angst guy]

I have gone through the same thing. I would joke around in a serious kind of way that I now understand why the people portrayed as crazy on TV always smack there heaRAB. I got a feeling in the front of my head that was so weird and I felt like I was losing my mind as well. I was on Citalopram also and upped the dosage but that did not work. I missed work and got into a real funk were I would just lay around and all that lovely stuff associated with anxiety. Then I saw my doc and he switched me to Zoloft, 100mg. That worked great but my anxiety came back briefly so he upped me to 200mg and life has been great since then. Even though it has only been a few months I feel better now than I have in the past. So you are not alone, I think lots of people, especially here, have gone through similar things and it always passes and works out in the end. I hope this helps and I hope you start feeling right soon.