DazedNConfuzed
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I'll make this as brief as I can bare with me. Me and my GF are 21 we have been together for 1 year and 5 months we are completely in love with eachother and over come any issues we may come accross, we are close sexually, mentally, family wise, etc. I cannot ever see myself with any other girl for the rest of my life, we have considered getting married for certain. She loves me so much, she is 100% mine, shes like my personal pornstar in bed, and nutruiting mother and lover out of bed. Here is the issue....
We met thru my old friend i met in college who was her EX BF now, he was overweight and did not care for her in the way of a relationship, they were like friends. They were together for 2yrs, they did nothing(lil foreplay thats it) til the last month they were together she decided she "wanted experience" they "tried" to have sex and turns out he failed to break her wall the 2 times they tried. While with him for last couple months we bounded...as friends but she seemed like she was out right flirting with me(this was all thru texting) but at the same time she would tell me about a guy at her school she was interested in but he had a GF too. Turns out after she broke up, those 2 had sex in school in some stairwell about 5 times according to her til he called it quits since he had a GF. We continue to talk and she tells me there is a guy in her program who seems to be into her(wanted to get in her pants from wat i could tell.) So I decide to just tell her how i felt and if she wanted to make our relationship something more or continue w/e she was doin wit her classmate. She choose me and we started dating, she later told me some 3 months after b/c I asked if they had sex and they did, twice, it took alot to get her to tell me about both these random flings b/c she was embarassed and I could not believe she gave in so easily. I was a virgin so I was thinking I was going to be her first as well or at least first without protection but turns out she didnt use any twice for the first fling. Right now she has cut all contact with all of these guys but the first fling she has recently exchanged texts openly as if there is nothing wrong with talking to some1 she was involved with all the while having me involved at the same time in the situation. Sooo basically my issue is I can't get over the fact of the flings shes had, it makes me jealous, it makes me want to get even, it makes me want to experience it too, it makes me angry she talks to one still, and more. I know getting "revenge" and playing around myself with different partners is not right and I don't want to but at the same time it makes me think it will get the stupid repeating thoughts of all this out of my head and satisfied. Am i messed up or wat? wat should I do, I hate talking to her about this b/c its so immature and selfish of me and she can't possibolly understand.
We met thru my old friend i met in college who was her EX BF now, he was overweight and did not care for her in the way of a relationship, they were like friends. They were together for 2yrs, they did nothing(lil foreplay thats it) til the last month they were together she decided she "wanted experience" they "tried" to have sex and turns out he failed to break her wall the 2 times they tried. While with him for last couple months we bounded...as friends but she seemed like she was out right flirting with me(this was all thru texting) but at the same time she would tell me about a guy at her school she was interested in but he had a GF too. Turns out after she broke up, those 2 had sex in school in some stairwell about 5 times according to her til he called it quits since he had a GF. We continue to talk and she tells me there is a guy in her program who seems to be into her(wanted to get in her pants from wat i could tell.) So I decide to just tell her how i felt and if she wanted to make our relationship something more or continue w/e she was doin wit her classmate. She choose me and we started dating, she later told me some 3 months after b/c I asked if they had sex and they did, twice, it took alot to get her to tell me about both these random flings b/c she was embarassed and I could not believe she gave in so easily. I was a virgin so I was thinking I was going to be her first as well or at least first without protection but turns out she didnt use any twice for the first fling. Right now she has cut all contact with all of these guys but the first fling she has recently exchanged texts openly as if there is nothing wrong with talking to some1 she was involved with all the while having me involved at the same time in the situation. Sooo basically my issue is I can't get over the fact of the flings shes had, it makes me jealous, it makes me want to get even, it makes me want to experience it too, it makes me angry she talks to one still, and more. I know getting "revenge" and playing around myself with different partners is not right and I don't want to but at the same time it makes me think it will get the stupid repeating thoughts of all this out of my head and satisfied. Am i messed up or wat? wat should I do, I hate talking to her about this b/c its so immature and selfish of me and she can't possibolly understand.