Fullcirlcle update....

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Hi all --coming up on 60 days and doing well. I wake up each morning with a smile on my face. Yes each morning I am sore, creaky, tired, older - BUT here is the good part. 1) I dont wake up each morning at 4:00am with a wave of guilt and shame. 2) I dont wake up in full WD and need to take something to make me feel better (coffee will do!) 3) I wake up and can hold my beautiful wife and know that I have not lied to her and that we truly love and trust each other. 4) I am not worrying about pills and where I will get them or how I will get the money. 5) I am a good role model for my kiRAB. they look at me and see the real me, the new me or as they have said " daddy I LIKE the new you, please make him stay" it doesnt get any more real than that. I am not boasting. I am just proud. I have come so far and still have so far to go. I hope I post the same thing at my 600th day clean. I know only ONE THING: I am clean right now and thats it. Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute and sometimes, SECOND by SECOND.

with love and admiration for all

D
 
Great post man and congrats....theres somebody else here just hit there 60 day. I had a bit of a fallback, and iam back in w/d's. your story gave me alot of hope that i can one day be there. i need to stop buring my emotions with pills and not be afraid to live sober. take care and keep goin!
 
Hello D,

So glad to hear you are doing well. It is amazing how good we feel when we are clean, eh?

All the points you made, I felt them too. No more lying, wondering about pills, guilt/shame etc. It's like we are a brand new person.

The only thing I'd like to ward you about it boredom. Because my life literally revolved around pills, I found myself extremely bored when I got clean. Do you find yourself bored sometimes? Keep busy, love life and always be vigilante.

Congratulations D, you have come a long, long way and I'm proud of you :)

Love and hugs,
emsmom
 
Hi D

Ahhh, when we can feel good about ourselves, the whole world is a better place, huh? I look back at my own time of using and abusing and wonder why and how I let myself wallow in such guilt and shame when all along there was a way out. What in the world was I thinking??? Not the right things, obviously.

To be able to wake up each day and look forward, rather than dreading, the coming day is fantastic. Day by day. Yep. For everyone, addict or not, it is a wonderful way to live. Experience today's joys and today's sorrows and depend that tomoorw will bring a whole new set of both. It is great to be able to look life in the eye and not cower from it.

I am so happy, D, that you continue to stay strong. To read the recognition of all that is good in sobriety is a blessing you are sharing with all of us here.
Thank you.

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reach
 
Thanks guys --i actually learn more about myself when i post. It is theraputic. WorRAB are just worRAB. let our actions speak for themselves.

d
 
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