Fuck my childhood, fuck child abuse, it fucking sucks ass

I've had some shit to deal with in the past with people being dicks to me about being "bigger" and other stupid shit that I felt bad about at the time but got through. But I'd feel like shit comparing my past and problems with Descent or Krazy's. I bitch about shit nowadays and fuck up at school, but I don't have anyone to blame but myself. I'm glad you guys are sticking it out though.

also, Krazy what CP are you working on?
 
I'm going to college right now and I'm finishing up VisualBasic.NET. Next year I'm taking C++. I already had Java last year. I've taken a few Markup and Script classes as well. I love it though. Do you do any programming?
 
Yup I'm in college as well :sad:. Sucks at the moment because I have to do a presentation on PHP. Oh well. I've done A couple years of C++, but it's not like I could write something really good. Did VB about 5 years ago. I liked it. I'm working on diving into script and Java independently... If only I wasn't so lazy

[sorry mods for slight off-topic]
 
That's cool. How many years do you have left? I graduate next year. I'm going to teach myself Perl this summer, just for the hell of it lol. I think all programmers are lazy, I know I am. I'm a procrastinator too, in fact, I'm procrastinating right now :D lol!
 
First of all, I want to thank everyone that has posted in this thread, so far, for renewing my belief that some of the people here on WTF are good-hearted people who are here to have fun, flame and bitch, in the appropriate threads, and be kind and caring in the threads that deserve kindness and compassion. Although, I wasn't surprised to see who the kind posts were from so far.:)

Secondly, you guys that are dealing with these issues every day....are my modern day heroes. I'm another of the "unnormals" (as Jane put it). I have bipolar disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, borderline personality disorder, and agoraphobia (all diagnosed, and I am considered disabled and on disability). SO....there are a few of us here that take medications and have to struggle with life in areas where others don't. I think you guys are amazing and I'm proud of you (don't see that as patronizing, it's not) for just hanging in there every day. You are amazing in ways that some people will never know.

What you live with and strive to deal with, doesn't compare to the relatively FEW issues that I now have, as long as I'm properly medicated. You boys/men both just need to remember that there are people that you can relate to and help, that perhaps NO ONE else can. Your lives have much more purpose than you may realize and it makes me happy to see you here. :thumbsup:

Just keep hangin' in there and being who you are. There is a purpose.
 
All of you are so incredibly strong. I have no known hangups. I've had something in my childhood that I've been blocking my whole life, although I don't like blaming childhood for hinderences in adulthood, I really do believe that it has kept me from succeeding. I would also not compare this at all to what some of you have gone through though. You give hope to others whether you realize it or not.

I do want to say, I know there are some parents who don't do everything right, but give them a little slack. If they have always shown you love and the effort they put forward to finding out and doing what they needed to then please know that was their best. My son has something that keeps him from developing like other children. We will be going to a child psychologist next week to discuss our concerns. I'm scared as hell. I so don't want to just go in blindly and take what they say as gospel.

I'm afraid of medicine and all its side effects. I'm scared of him being misdiagnosed. I'm scared he'll feel ostracized and rejected later in life. I am so scared of not doing everything I can. It's hard, you just don't know, there are pros and cons to everything as far as treatment so it's a crapshoot. I look up and read everything I can on different symptoms and the possible disorders but I don't know what I'm really looking for.

I just love him to pieces and give him affection as often as I can. I'll admit, it is so frustrating to speak to a child the way you have learned to communicate your whole life and see a total lack of comprehension in his eyes though. It's very hard to not lose your patience and snap when things seem so simple yet impossible for him to do. That's why every day I hug and kiss him and tell him how wonderful he is to me. I just hope it's enough.
 
It truly does suck. What's worst is having so little memory of it happening, only remembering emotional trauma, and having no thoughts to rationalize.

Hence why I need intense psychological help I cannot recieve at the moment.

My current school gives me free psychiatric help. The only good psychiatric help I've ever had. I either use their internal social worker and psychiatrist or don't use it at all.

So this shit is taking a backseat to my bipolar disorder, which is basically destroying my life as we speak.

That said I'm not going to up and kill myself. I reinvented myself after I was brainwashed, but even though it was for the better, I wish it never happened.


IF YOUR SON IS DIAGNOSED WITH ASPERGER SYNDROME, DO NOT PUT HIM ON ANY MEDICINE. ONLY ADHD PILLS ARE ACCEPTABLE.

Risperdal is advertised as a treatment for it but in reality amplifies it. I don't know if WWEFan300 still posts here, but he too was negatively affected by this. Just like me, he got off Risperdal and him symptoms went away.
 
Ive had to deal with some minor stuff as a child but honestly I feel for all of you whom have been abused etc.

I'm very against child abuse.
 
I feel so bad for you guys. I have everything you never had, I have never had anything bad happen to me, I don't have horrible life at all.

I feel undeserving of what I have, and that I do not deserve the happiness I have. I wish I could share it, or atleast make it easier for you to let go.

:(

Descent, try not to look back, move on. Be yourself. And remember who you are.
 
Descent, I've heard the exact phrase about ADHD meds with as much passion as you stated about Asperger's meds. I doubt I'll put him on anything, unless it just becomes a bigger problem as he gets older, and even then, I won't do anything right off the bat drugwise. I'll also be reading up on everything they even mention let alone prescribe.

I'm hoping that they'll just have communication exercises we can try, or dietary changes, sports or whatever. Drugs will be our LAST avenue.
 
Yeah drugs would be my last choice for my child as well. I hate having to take 10 pills a day, all for something different, and if I don't take them then I have a massive headache for the rest of the week! I just got over a headache that I've had for a month now because I went a week without taking my meds because the pharmacist refused to fill them for me. Bastards. I was so fucked up, I was all shaky and shit. It sucked.

But good luck with your son, Honey, I hope he is doing well. Let us know about any changes in what the doctors say and whatnot.
 
Will do. I'm just hoping it's just a quirk in his behavior or even a mild learning disability, because even though it is obvious to everyone he is different, it isn't debilitating at this point anyway.
 
honey, just make sure that your son has someone he can confide it. if it gets tough for him, you may want to take him to a counselor so he can get stuff out. it helped me through a lot. also, if you son does wind up having a condition (i don't call them problems...because that makes stuff negative) don't be in denial over it. my stupid ex step mom doesn't admit to the face that her son needs help. she doesn't want him labelled. however, it is the best thing for him and he NEEDS the attention the school can provide. my prayers are with ya'll honey. :)
 
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