From1RODFAN in need of help!

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Hey Linda,

I just got to reading this post.. Sorry it took me so long.. No computer at home so the weekenRAB drive me insance and then Monday morning I try to catch up on as much as possible.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way! It breaks my heart. I am so proud of you though to get some help! That is the smartest thing you could ever do. Good luck with it and please post us to let us know how it went.

I think it's so cute you are in love with Rod Stewart!!!!
XOXOXOOXXO
 
Hi Guys, well I tooke the first step & called netcare! They told me to come n get in line first thing Monday morning. I am very scared for I wake up in the morning and drink my beer or whatever I have here I am keeping it real with u guys because I know I can. By the end of the day I am so physically & emotionally drained I just cry myself to sleep. I know I need help to stop and some people think I can just put it down and call it a day. I am afraid to do that. My boyfriend works from 6:00 pm until 5:00 am and I am scared to be alone for I dont know what will happen. I have heart disease (MVP) and I have read that it is not safe to do alcohol detox without professional help. Has anyone been through this and what did u go through? Please respond for I cant do this anymore!
As always,
1RODFAN
 
Heya.......Im on board with crocheting. Day is getting harder for me too. Cravings driving me NUTS. Tell me about whats going on for you.
CC
 
Hey Linda, Just wanted to let you know you have been in my prayers. I hope your Dr appt went well yesterday and you are in good spirits. I thought about you often yesterday...such a big step to make. On my way home from work, instead of making the usual stop at the liquor store I gripped the steering wheel tightly and thought about you..and MikeS and all the energy you are expending to overcome this demon. We are in it together. -m
 
Hi GrannyO my name is Linda and I am an alcoholic have been through the painpill thing everything is so so hard! It is good to hear from someone who cares as I know you all do on this board. I think i am in really deep and I go tomorow to talk wth someone but I dont think I am strong enough to overcome this! I JUST WANT TO FEEL NORMAL! Without any kind of substance in my body, I used to and I want that back. Please keep posting for u guys are what I have as support.
 
Hi guys just need some worRAB of encouragement getting ready to detox from alcohol I go this Monday for HELP! I am scared and I literally have no support. My boyfriend says just drink on weekenRAB like I do HA HA not many people get it. I will once again have to remove myself from the people I love (Tommy) who has enabled me but he does not understand. I am doing this for myself so I can be there for my daughter Brooke & my granRABon Gabriel whom is 9 months old. I got up @ 6:00 am and had 1 cup of coffee then went on to beer, so depressed. It is now almost 1:00 and I have had a few too many but it is what my body is used to not my mind. Mike~ if you are on please respond or anyone going through similar situations. I would appreciate it from the bottom of my heart
Thanks guys,
Linda
 
Hi Lugar22 thank you for responding I am seeking help through netcare for I have no insurance and I'm hoping and I say my prayers everynight that i will find strength n guidance to do this. I am catholic and I believe in God and I know it will take me to do this but I know He will be right there beside me. Please keep keep posting for this is my inspiration!
Linda
 
Linda......gosh,how bleedin BRAVE. Where are you goin Monday for help? Is it Drs or 'proper' clinic? It must be so hard not to have anyone immeadiatly close to you that can offer support,but I think many of us can relate to that. Thats what makes this site so fantastic - WE all UNDERSTAND you,and will be here whenever you need. I know its scary.......it terrifies me to think of a life with no props but then again a life with (props) sucks. It doesnt actually help.....just obscures the real issues. I dont know if it'll help , but I have been putting pictures of me kiRAB and anything that comes to mind(including quotes off here) everywhere in my house. I mean everywhere. It just helps to keep my goal right in the forefront of mind.
Keep strong ,mate,and work towarRAB Monday. Im here if you need.
Take care,friend
CC XOXOX
 
Hiya mate...wondered how you were (thanks for your support...have also replied under my recent thread). Im so pleased that u r definately gonna go talk to someone tomorrow bout your stuff. Its the first step and we will all be here to support you whenever u need. Its never easy admitting to some stranger that you have an issue,but hopefully they can put you in a position to really start to tackle the booze. You know that Im right at the beginning too and have had a relapse today but u r right...we dont need any stuff going through our body anymore. Lets just be normal! I think sometimes when u spend so long taking something , its hard to recall what normal is. But its better than the self loathing addicts have for themselves , eh? You're right , u may not be strong enough to do this alone but , guess what? YOU R NOT ALONE ANYMORE!
Here if you want
love CC
 
Thank u M went so so yesterday I dont have insurance so I have to wait for a room or bed if u will to open up they will keep me for 3 days then turn me loose. Up to me to follow up with therapy. Once again thank u for thinking of me means the world even though I dont know you but I do. Good for u for keeping on driving past the demon store! Stay strong~I am trying.
Love
 
Linda,
do you have access to an AA meeting they also have meetings online. If you need someone to come out and sit with you they will. Its called a 12 step call. Or you can tt someone over the phone, they will give you a list of meetings you can attend some meetings even have childcare. I have said in prior posts AA/NA and these boarRAB have saved my life.

this is a place where we don't place judgement on anyone. this is our saft place, a place where we all belong. That is what the rooms of AA/NA are to me. If you attend a meeting people will give you there phone # and they will ask you for yours and offer to help you. thats what they are there for.

Were here for you sweetheart.

Love ya,
Lori
 
I hope this post finRAB you doing good! I to am an acholic. I have not had a drink in over 10 yrs. I am very grateful for that. So I do know what you are feeling, and it will get better each day. I also felt very alone, nobody understood or took me serious! I sure wish I had these boarRAB all those years ago. Your not alone....we all care very much...and we will be there for you. Post as much as you can, it does help. I will be looking for you on the boarRAB. I hope today you can get some peace of mind!
Crocheting
 
Hey Linda,

Congrats on your commitment to quit. How long have you been drinking like this?
Do you plan on drinking as much as you can between now and Monday? That won't make Monday any easier. If you've been drinking daily for a long time, it may not be safe for you to quit on your own at home. Drinking has never been my DOC, but don't you go into DT's (very sick, hullicinations, tremors) when you stop drinking. Will you at least have someone home with you? I'm concerned for you. Please post back.

I'm Catholic also, haven't been practicing it much but I will keep you in my prayers. Addiction is such a demon to battle alone.

JB
 
Really need to talk with someone on here I know you are all going through the same things having a bad~rudeawakening day!
 
Hi Lori its Linda Thank u so much for the info anout AA coming to you I did not know that. I hope this post finRAB you well and I appreciate your worRAB of concern from the bottom of my heart and I do have a huge heart. Hurt so much~been through alot death of my mom n pop and my younger sister Sam . She passed from an overdose and I found her, she was 38 yrs old with 3 kiRAB. This was 1 1/2 years ago and I still have a hard time dealing. I gave my parents to God for they both had cancer but I have yet to do that with Sammy. She was my best friend and I miss her every second of everyday! I know my family is together in Heaven but we are selfish and want them here. Lots of issues to address and I will, I need to find courage and strength and the right professionals to help me handle them. Women wear many faces and I am tired of holding it in everyday. Once again thanl you so much for responding~it means alot to me Trust and believe that my friend.
As always,
1RODFAN (I really dig Rod Stewart seen him 14 times pure LOVE)!!!
 
We are here for you :)are you having a hard day? Let us know how your doing, we will help the best we can!I will check back soon!
Crocheting
 
Hiya poppit! Glad you made it to your appointment yesterday and managed to get something positive from it. Its a shame that you can only have a bed for 3 days , but it will be a good positive step in the right direction. Help you get over the first immeadiate hurdle......will they offer any outpatient assistance after that? I forget how lucky we are in Britain with national healthcare. The waiting lists for rehab are VERY long and you need a special referral but at least its free. I often wish Id done rehab before I had the kiRAB but I didnt. I couldnt leave them for 6 months.
Did you talk to the docter about your grief issues too? I really feel that maybe it would be helpful. I dont know how true it is , but they say that while you're using any substance you supress your feelings. When you then get clean it all comes to the surface and is as raw as ever. I hope you find the strength to get the help you need with that.
Any idea how long you will have to wait for a bed to become avaliable? Hope today is going well for you and you are managing to keep busy.
Am here for you friend.............CC
 
LO darlin.......GrannyO is right when she said that doing the whole detox thing at home can be risky , specially if your dropping from a big intake of booze to zero. Also,with no support it can be difficult. Whats netcare? I forget sometimes how lucky I am for in England we have a national healthcare system which is free to all. I did live in the US for a while in my early 20s but dont recall what netcare is.
Im not catholic , but I am Christian and have found a fantastic church that I go to every Sunday. I will admit that I tell them nothin when it comes to me 'monkey' but I still do get great comfort in feeling close to God. Thats a whole nuvver topic as feeling 'not worthy' is almost overwhelming at times. Quite often I am the saddo sitting at the back of church sobbin me heart out. But,I am comforted thaT God knows who I really am and loves me all the same. He loves you too.Do you think Church would/could be something to try? If you dont find one that clicks with you straight away,then keep looking. You will find one that suits.......and maybe with that you will find a whole new support network. Just a suggestion.
Things are getting real tough for me tonight.......its 7.30pm here and I have stayed off all day. But now Im getting consumed by thoughts of wanting to score. It seems I can be strong all day and then evenings are crappy. I have washed floors,cleaned windows and curtains and all that. Now Im at a loss.
Take care friend........CC
(I prefer CC to Lugar22 - thats just a sign on!)
 
I am in a pile of poop right now too. We both have DR appt. today and I am scared to even get in the car. I know though that what I am currently doing is not right and we are both killing ourselves. I have 3 beautiful children and a lovely wife and family, but most of all we have OURSELVES. We need to do this for ourselves. Make a goal, get help and get better. We are all here to make that happen. I made it 8 months last time and I plan on making it 8+ months this time. I learn more and more each time. Addition is a crazy thing. You do not want to end up like Sam. That is not the way to go out, especially when you have a CHOICE. That is the way I look at it right now. I have a choice to either kill myself slowly and slowly or take the hard way out and beat the beast of addiction. I have battled with this bastard for 6 years now and its bout time it enRAB. Please stay positive and GO SEE YOUR DR.

D
 
Dear Linda, I'm sorry it's taken me so long to respond. I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time. I admire your courage. People who aren't addicts just don't understand how hard this is. Been through this many times. You have to be very careful detoxing. It is dangerous. If possible, seek medical care. If not then tell your boyfriend to take off work. It's horrible going through this alone as I have. Obviously this isn't medical advice but what I did was drink plenty of fluiRAB & take vitamin B-1 for the Thiamine which alcohol depletes. I've drank Gatoraid when detoxing for the electrolites. I'm not going to sugar-coat this. It won't be easy but YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS ! It will be well worth it. Do this now & you'll save yourself a lot of heartache down the road. I have severe nerve damage because of my alcohol abuse. Don't let this happen to you. Please keep us all posted. My thoughts & prayers are w/ you. YOU CAN DO THIS ! Love, Mike
 
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