so i have some unpleasant past memories and after a more recent one it just keeps coming back, it's a real weight on my shoulder, but i can't tell anyone, not that i even want to but this time nobody knows not even my mum who had to get involved in the last event which was abuse from my father. Will these 'flash backs' scar me for life? they make me phyisically feel sick, like crying and sometimes i go really pale and think i'm going to pass out, or really shakey and cold like it's happened again. what is this? they're horrible. i can forget for awhile whilst talking and having fun with my friends but then if i suddenly remember, like a 'flash back' i go all quiet and just want to escape. is this any type of disorder, is it common? its really worrying and causes me a great deal of stress 
i found a way to cope last time, but this time it's awful, i hate all teenage boys! i can't have them stood near me or touch me. it makes me hate myself and i just want to change bodies but can't :'(
i found a way to cope last time, but this time it's awful, i hate all teenage boys! i can't have them stood near me or touch me. it makes me hate myself and i just want to change bodies but can't :'(