Hello!
I didn't know how to title the question....
Well this is something I can't talk to anyone else, and well I'd like some advise (perhaps I won't receive nice answers but at the same time maybe I just need to feel like I expressed how I feel by asking).
I'm 19 and I've never had sex before. I've never been so "out there" when it comes to guys (type of person who's always said "no" to the ones who came to me). I met someone who was my first kiss, my first actual "physical" contact with a guy when I was 16. Not because he was my first kiss did I develop feelings for him, the thing is we've kept it on a "dating" (if that's the word for it) basis...When it all started back when I was 16 time passed between us and we met up again...we seem to have this on and off thing.
Certain things seemed to have interfered (family against family, some "distance" because we both go to college and he's very devoted to it that we only meet up when we can)...but with all that's happened since we were younger we always seem to connect again.
We're both off from college now, and I know the situation I'm in with him (not having an official relationship) and even though I've always kept myself from having sex, I'm considering it...Today...
And I'm really nervous, I have seen both sides of this, and I know that perhaps we'll never have a solid public relationship, this does hurt me, but at the same time I am starting to see things as if all I want to do is enjoy my present moment with him without having to regret not doing so later on...
Does this seem wrong to you though?
He knows me, he knows he's been the only on I've ever been close to in such way...so by that side I feel good because I know he thinks nothing wrong of me, he knows how I feel too...
How was your first time? Were you as nervous as well?
I didn't know how to title the question....
Well this is something I can't talk to anyone else, and well I'd like some advise (perhaps I won't receive nice answers but at the same time maybe I just need to feel like I expressed how I feel by asking).
I'm 19 and I've never had sex before. I've never been so "out there" when it comes to guys (type of person who's always said "no" to the ones who came to me). I met someone who was my first kiss, my first actual "physical" contact with a guy when I was 16. Not because he was my first kiss did I develop feelings for him, the thing is we've kept it on a "dating" (if that's the word for it) basis...When it all started back when I was 16 time passed between us and we met up again...we seem to have this on and off thing.
Certain things seemed to have interfered (family against family, some "distance" because we both go to college and he's very devoted to it that we only meet up when we can)...but with all that's happened since we were younger we always seem to connect again.
We're both off from college now, and I know the situation I'm in with him (not having an official relationship) and even though I've always kept myself from having sex, I'm considering it...Today...
And I'm really nervous, I have seen both sides of this, and I know that perhaps we'll never have a solid public relationship, this does hurt me, but at the same time I am starting to see things as if all I want to do is enjoy my present moment with him without having to regret not doing so later on...
Does this seem wrong to you though?
He knows me, he knows he's been the only on I've ever been close to in such way...so by that side I feel good because I know he thinks nothing wrong of me, he knows how I feel too...
How was your first time? Were you as nervous as well?