Natalie Scottsworth
New member
Okay the question pretty much says it all. I have been in a relationship with my current boyfriend for one year now. In today's society, people already have had sex in that given amount of time. But I don't fall under that category of people. I'm not saving myself for after marriage and I don't consider premarital sex to be a sin. In fact, I think it is a beautiful thing to be shared by two people who are in love and see a future together. I'm not against it, I'm just against how our society (especially young people) rape it of its value. A lot of relationships these days ride solely on sex and if there is no sex, then people move on from said relationship. That's not what I want. I want my first sexual experience to be with someone who I genuinely love and something that stems from pure love. My boyfriend has already had sex before with a girl he was in a relationship for 6 months. When I asked him about it, he straight up told me that it was because he had a schoolboy mentality and it was not because he loved her. He says that if he could take that moment back then he would. I have never had sex before. I've had very deep and close relationships and have truly felt what its like being in love. And being in love doesn't just mean sex. I reach people on levels that are truly intimate without getting into their pants to do so. But my boyfriend's friends are the kinds of kids who have sex because there is nothing else to do. And they constantly pressure my boyfriend into finding someone that will "put out". Ugh ouch much. Just recently though, my boyfriend and I have become more intimate on that level. I told him I would not have sex until we both felt ready and I didn't think either of us were. He agreed. But this was more along the lines of feeling each other, touching each other, kissing each other. It was a beautiful and gentle feeling of intimacy and I felt it was healthy to get to know each other in that way. But without going too far. But I cannot help but think of being compared to his prior experience. I feel it taints the moment so much because I feel like another notch on his belt. I told him about it and he told me to forget about his prior experience. He says that it couldn't compare to what he felt with me. But its a lot easier said than done. Any advice please?
I'm 19
I'm 19