so i live in this small suburb in new jersey its known for its wealth and how snobby people are, and that's what makes me hate it. i'm 16 years old and all my teachers are telling the students to start envisioning their futures. i've been envisioning mine since i was 8 and it's of me working in new york or l.a. my worst nightmare is to be stuck in this town forever.
i'm a really good student and i usually don't have that much difficulty getting my homework done in a reasonable amount of time and still having free time after. however, lately, i've been up to 12 midnight doing homework when i used to get done around 8. and it's not just because im taking harder classes. i just have this feeling inside me that i'm not as motivated anymore. school doesn't feel like just part of my everyday routine anymore. a couple days ago, i realized that this is because im feeling trapped in this town and i really don't know what to do.
this is taking a huge toll on me and idk how much longer i can stand this. i'd never consider dropping out of school and end up doing nothing, but i feel like i need to get an early start on my dreams. i know that there's a very very very small chance of my parents letting me just roam free and allowing me to live out my dreams, so i need to know how to feel less restricted by this town. i need to know how i can feel fulfilled by my stupid every day accomplishments rather than be burdened by the work that they required.
somebody help?
p.s. i'm not one of those kids who's trying to say that they hate their life and what not. i feel blessed to have a life as great as i do. at the same time though, i just feel like im destined for so much more and that i'm ready to live up to those expectations.
i'm a really good student and i usually don't have that much difficulty getting my homework done in a reasonable amount of time and still having free time after. however, lately, i've been up to 12 midnight doing homework when i used to get done around 8. and it's not just because im taking harder classes. i just have this feeling inside me that i'm not as motivated anymore. school doesn't feel like just part of my everyday routine anymore. a couple days ago, i realized that this is because im feeling trapped in this town and i really don't know what to do.
this is taking a huge toll on me and idk how much longer i can stand this. i'd never consider dropping out of school and end up doing nothing, but i feel like i need to get an early start on my dreams. i know that there's a very very very small chance of my parents letting me just roam free and allowing me to live out my dreams, so i need to know how to feel less restricted by this town. i need to know how i can feel fulfilled by my stupid every day accomplishments rather than be burdened by the work that they required.
somebody help?
p.s. i'm not one of those kids who's trying to say that they hate their life and what not. i feel blessed to have a life as great as i do. at the same time though, i just feel like im destined for so much more and that i'm ready to live up to those expectations.