Feeling Lost in this World with my standing and education?
Hello, Im feeling kinda down lately. I like this one person, a friend but he doesnt like me. Anyhow, he works for a school and people from all over the world attend the school. He kinds brags how the students that he manages are some of the smartest people. That they help make some important decsions to society.
He has one student of whom I think he kinds likes, she is "fiesty" and outgoing, and a physicist student. I cant help but thinking that he thinks Im dumb, and doesnt like me because im not outgoing. Although im very proud to say that ive worked and continue to work on my shyness everyday as much as I can and Ive really improved. Anyhow, I also feel like he likes her because he's impressed by her intelligence and that she is getting her Dr. in the area of a physicist .
But I guess that those things dont bother me as much as this one thing....: I feel like i'm am very jealous of these students, becasue they are so smart and they are doing something that really contributes to society and the well being of mankind. Me, I've been to school, but havnt finished. I'm at a not so great job right now at a walmart. Even though I know that with the economy some people are giving their left arm right now for that job.
I guess, I just feel like sometimes I am really dumb. Why couldnt I have been born with the brains that these physicist students have. I would like to be able to be really smart and contribute to society. Or to at least contribute to society. I guess my intelligence has always kinda bothered me.
I understand we cant help how we are born , but it bugs me sometimes.
I want to go back to school. Its just that ive been so down lately.Had to move back in with family.., caught up being used by guys who dont want me, ...etc. that i feel like ive lost my motivation. Also, I have a family that didnt go very far in their education. some college. the family im staying with, they dont motivate me that much. they didnt really go to school much. they just think people should pick a job from a company and retire after staying there for many years. the only inspiration i have is a friend who has been to college. but its the friend that i like and i guess i feel like in their eyes im not good enough.
I know I sound like a sad case. Has anyone felt like this. ? Can any "smart " people, lol. help me with this? I guess I wouldnt mind hearing from some people that are in these high programs,or getting their masters or Drs. maybe they can offer me some advice.?
Or anyone for that matter? Thanks Very Much,
Hello, Im feeling kinda down lately. I like this one person, a friend but he doesnt like me. Anyhow, he works for a school and people from all over the world attend the school. He kinds brags how the students that he manages are some of the smartest people. That they help make some important decsions to society.
He has one student of whom I think he kinds likes, she is "fiesty" and outgoing, and a physicist student. I cant help but thinking that he thinks Im dumb, and doesnt like me because im not outgoing. Although im very proud to say that ive worked and continue to work on my shyness everyday as much as I can and Ive really improved. Anyhow, I also feel like he likes her because he's impressed by her intelligence and that she is getting her Dr. in the area of a physicist .
But I guess that those things dont bother me as much as this one thing....: I feel like i'm am very jealous of these students, becasue they are so smart and they are doing something that really contributes to society and the well being of mankind. Me, I've been to school, but havnt finished. I'm at a not so great job right now at a walmart. Even though I know that with the economy some people are giving their left arm right now for that job.
I guess, I just feel like sometimes I am really dumb. Why couldnt I have been born with the brains that these physicist students have. I would like to be able to be really smart and contribute to society. Or to at least contribute to society. I guess my intelligence has always kinda bothered me.
I understand we cant help how we are born , but it bugs me sometimes.
I want to go back to school. Its just that ive been so down lately.Had to move back in with family.., caught up being used by guys who dont want me, ...etc. that i feel like ive lost my motivation. Also, I have a family that didnt go very far in their education. some college. the family im staying with, they dont motivate me that much. they didnt really go to school much. they just think people should pick a job from a company and retire after staying there for many years. the only inspiration i have is a friend who has been to college. but its the friend that i like and i guess i feel like in their eyes im not good enough.
I know I sound like a sad case. Has anyone felt like this. ? Can any "smart " people, lol. help me with this? I guess I wouldnt mind hearing from some people that are in these high programs,or getting their masters or Drs. maybe they can offer me some advice.?
Or anyone for that matter? Thanks Very Much,