family and financial?

[Caty1973]

I have a very sad story... not the saddest in the world but trust me it's sad in my situation. Well here I am 36 yrs old. Living with my two boys 12 and 16. Went to an Institute but never came to anything. They keep growing bigger, older. I am a single mom. They never see anything grow of me. I give them advice but what is that with no proof if i can not even find my self. I try and I give them all that I am. I teach them what is good. To stay away from drugs and be good people but what is that when the time comes and Child support doesn't cover the family any more. Not to sound like I was a user but I needed the help. I took the dad to court for support never asked him for the spousal support thinking I was strong enough to find something by now but yet only have my part time trying too make sure they stay out of trouble. Now the oldest one is almost 18. He is still in high school and i have friends asking me what I will do in 5 months when he is 18. I mean the dad pays support but he has never been there. Even when i would call him to ask him to talk to him, I would only get one call and that's all. What do I do, where do I go... I feel so lost... I am a single mom.