Ok, I've asked this question a few times on yahoo answers. Let me start by saying don't give me "Sleep with a girl then a boy" or "Experiment with people and see." answers. I'm only fricken 14 years old, and anyways, I want to be a virgin until I'm married. I'm also atheist so don't give me religious answers please.
Well this started when puberty started, basically; age 11-12 or so... All the time since I could remember I have only looked at girls as being beautiful or hot, and I still do, except for the girls online (porn). I have only wanted to have relationships with girls, including marriage, and still do very much. Now, where the problem comes in, I do not get aroused by any lesbian porn, no matter what. I have all my ideal girls in my head all the time and never once have I picked out the ideal guy, basically because i hate almost every guy I know and a lot beyond. I sometimes get aroused by straight porn, and I get extremely aroused by gay porn. But of course all the guys in porn are going to be the toned and good looking ones, ya know. I don't find the female body to be EXTREMELY attractive but when I see a girl I think is hot, I still think like the typical guy like, "I'd tap that." But still I'd still have sex with a guy because I find it more attractive. Ive had a girlfriend but she was my complete opposite, which I hated. I have had all my crushes, all girls. I really live like 3 lives. 1:Shy, quiet, straight A's, innocent, nice kid. 2: Crazy, funny, energetic kid. AND 3: Horny, masturbating kid. I don't like guys as friends most of the time , I've only had the guy friends that are like me and AREN'T jocky and sporty that get all the girls. My friends are mainly girls because I'm so quiet they usually just come up and talk to me. I'm more comfortable sitting or being around girls than guys, because I take serious caution with my actions so I'm not labeled as something negative in my peer's minds. Anyway, back to attraction, I NEVER look at a guy and think "I'd do him." it's only when it comes to porn, and in no way real life. I really don't get all this, while at the same time I'm 14 and I don't know if I really have or need to know yet. I don't know if this will stay or leave in the future. Also, I get days where I think "How could ANYONE be gay, ever?" and the complete opposites, "How can ANYONE be lesbian/straight, ever?" . Some days I'm completely straight, the other days, the exact opposite. I always have a lot on my mind that never goes away.
Summary:
Girls-Want to marry/have relationships, less attractive than guys, would like to have sex with, have only loved(I extremely like girls' in general)/had crushes on.
Guys-More attractive than girls, DON'T want to marry/have relationships with, wouldn't mind to have sex with, NEVER loved/even thought of ONCE loving.
So, what do you guys think? (I know I got a little off-topic, but...) Could this be a phase that will end in the future? (Had it since puberty started, age 11-12, remember.) Could It stay? If it stays, would I be labeled as bi, gay, or bi-curious. And again, I don't want to experiment and won't. Thanks. : /
Well this started when puberty started, basically; age 11-12 or so... All the time since I could remember I have only looked at girls as being beautiful or hot, and I still do, except for the girls online (porn). I have only wanted to have relationships with girls, including marriage, and still do very much. Now, where the problem comes in, I do not get aroused by any lesbian porn, no matter what. I have all my ideal girls in my head all the time and never once have I picked out the ideal guy, basically because i hate almost every guy I know and a lot beyond. I sometimes get aroused by straight porn, and I get extremely aroused by gay porn. But of course all the guys in porn are going to be the toned and good looking ones, ya know. I don't find the female body to be EXTREMELY attractive but when I see a girl I think is hot, I still think like the typical guy like, "I'd tap that." But still I'd still have sex with a guy because I find it more attractive. Ive had a girlfriend but she was my complete opposite, which I hated. I have had all my crushes, all girls. I really live like 3 lives. 1:Shy, quiet, straight A's, innocent, nice kid. 2: Crazy, funny, energetic kid. AND 3: Horny, masturbating kid. I don't like guys as friends most of the time , I've only had the guy friends that are like me and AREN'T jocky and sporty that get all the girls. My friends are mainly girls because I'm so quiet they usually just come up and talk to me. I'm more comfortable sitting or being around girls than guys, because I take serious caution with my actions so I'm not labeled as something negative in my peer's minds. Anyway, back to attraction, I NEVER look at a guy and think "I'd do him." it's only when it comes to porn, and in no way real life. I really don't get all this, while at the same time I'm 14 and I don't know if I really have or need to know yet. I don't know if this will stay or leave in the future. Also, I get days where I think "How could ANYONE be gay, ever?" and the complete opposites, "How can ANYONE be lesbian/straight, ever?" . Some days I'm completely straight, the other days, the exact opposite. I always have a lot on my mind that never goes away.
Summary:
Girls-Want to marry/have relationships, less attractive than guys, would like to have sex with, have only loved(I extremely like girls' in general)/had crushes on.
Guys-More attractive than girls, DON'T want to marry/have relationships with, wouldn't mind to have sex with, NEVER loved/even thought of ONCE loving.
So, what do you guys think? (I know I got a little off-topic, but...) Could this be a phase that will end in the future? (Had it since puberty started, age 11-12, remember.) Could It stay? If it stays, would I be labeled as bi, gay, or bi-curious. And again, I don't want to experiment and won't. Thanks. : /