I am bi, but I don't come off as the stereotypical way at all. There have been so many rumors going around and gay jokes were a normal thing against me. Most people really like me when I meet them but I feel awkward because of knowing that they will hear about the rumors and have suspicions.
I did a couple of things when I was drunk at a couple of parties that made it seem that way. And some girl caught me staring at some guys @ss. So every guy in my math class flirted with me telling me I'm cute as a joke and I just feel worthless now. It used to be that people REALLY liked me but now I feel like everyone is against me. I have my friends but they suspect I am bi too. I kind of brushed it off believing that people were just joking around. I am out of high school now but yesterday I met up with a guy from high school and he started drinking (and the truth comes out after drinking) and he said that everyone thought I was gay, even my friends, and he said that my voice sounded identical to this gay guy. And I just felt like crap for the rest of the night because I had no idea my voice sounded like that, I'm not sure if he was just being an @ss or telling the truth because to me it sounds deep. No ones ever told me anything like that before. Later he said he was just joking around, but somehow I don't think he was.
I think the only thing that makes people believe that I am not bi is the fact that I've dated girls before.
I honestly hate myself, and feel very self conscious that people feel this way about me. I am just not ready to come out. I'm very self conscious and care a lot what people think of me.
I did a couple of things when I was drunk at a couple of parties that made it seem that way. And some girl caught me staring at some guys @ss. So every guy in my math class flirted with me telling me I'm cute as a joke and I just feel worthless now. It used to be that people REALLY liked me but now I feel like everyone is against me. I have my friends but they suspect I am bi too. I kind of brushed it off believing that people were just joking around. I am out of high school now but yesterday I met up with a guy from high school and he started drinking (and the truth comes out after drinking) and he said that everyone thought I was gay, even my friends, and he said that my voice sounded identical to this gay guy. And I just felt like crap for the rest of the night because I had no idea my voice sounded like that, I'm not sure if he was just being an @ss or telling the truth because to me it sounds deep. No ones ever told me anything like that before. Later he said he was just joking around, but somehow I don't think he was.
I think the only thing that makes people believe that I am not bi is the fact that I've dated girls before.
I honestly hate myself, and feel very self conscious that people feel this way about me. I am just not ready to come out. I'm very self conscious and care a lot what people think of me.