Im nice to everyone, and everybody just looks at me like I have a dick growing out of my left eye socket or something (and no, Im not ugly btw)... At school I just spend my time pacing the halls before class and during the lunch break because whenever Im with someone they act like Im making them look bad by being with them, but the second they need money or something its all buddy buddy (no I dont always just give it to them when they do that-.-) All day at school everyday I hear about "the big party" from the weekend, the one Im not invited to every weekend.
At work everyday after school I get all these douchebags coming in demanding me to risk my job (which I NEED for at least another year, which they dont seem to understand) so they can soothe their ******* nicotine addictions, or they want money out of the register to go buy pot for themselves... when I say no they go around acting like I owe my life to them or something (btw, pretty much all of them owe me money, which "theyre getting in an hour", to then spend it on booze). Once I said "all you do everyday is take ****" then I get this as a response; "what the **** are you talking about ****** prick, I pay for everything" I help them out, I go home to spend another night alone, I dont help them out, they dont leave until my boss shows up and bitches at me, then I go home to spend another night alone...
Then theres my mom, who is overly paranoid, who spent a whole year convinced my brothers mother in law was trying to tear our family apart, because she wanted to see her granddaughter too, and thought she tried to pick her daughters friends (thats her...), and control her entire life to make her happy(again, her...), basically taking her problems and putting them on someone else. Then one day I get sick of people and leave class, which people do on a daily basis in the classes Im in, and nobody really thinks anything of it, but nope, I leave for the last half hour of class and have to go see a psychiatrist...
I know your all gonna say "find new friends", but trust me, thats really not an option here... not many people around here, and Im getting sick of seeing everybody having their best friends showing up at their locker between classes, going out for lunch together, just having somebody to hang out with, the 1 real friend I thought I had just ditched me out of nowhere. I tried looking happier and talking to people more, and nothing changed, but I swear the next person to ask me why I look so depressed now is gonna make me snap and put their head through a locker or something... somebody help??
At work everyday after school I get all these douchebags coming in demanding me to risk my job (which I NEED for at least another year, which they dont seem to understand) so they can soothe their ******* nicotine addictions, or they want money out of the register to go buy pot for themselves... when I say no they go around acting like I owe my life to them or something (btw, pretty much all of them owe me money, which "theyre getting in an hour", to then spend it on booze). Once I said "all you do everyday is take ****" then I get this as a response; "what the **** are you talking about ****** prick, I pay for everything" I help them out, I go home to spend another night alone, I dont help them out, they dont leave until my boss shows up and bitches at me, then I go home to spend another night alone...
Then theres my mom, who is overly paranoid, who spent a whole year convinced my brothers mother in law was trying to tear our family apart, because she wanted to see her granddaughter too, and thought she tried to pick her daughters friends (thats her...), and control her entire life to make her happy(again, her...), basically taking her problems and putting them on someone else. Then one day I get sick of people and leave class, which people do on a daily basis in the classes Im in, and nobody really thinks anything of it, but nope, I leave for the last half hour of class and have to go see a psychiatrist...
I know your all gonna say "find new friends", but trust me, thats really not an option here... not many people around here, and Im getting sick of seeing everybody having their best friends showing up at their locker between classes, going out for lunch together, just having somebody to hang out with, the 1 real friend I thought I had just ditched me out of nowhere. I tried looking happier and talking to people more, and nothing changed, but I swear the next person to ask me why I look so depressed now is gonna make me snap and put their head through a locker or something... somebody help??